;) its december alrdy. damn, hw time flies. heh.soon it will 2011. and well,i dont knw. i dn wanna become older :( sighs. okay lah.byee
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WELL WELLL. PD IS FINALLY OVER! PHEW. god, idk it would be tt fast. i LOVE lee kong seng and ben gay! haha. i knew it wouldnt be tt hard becose they dont really knw me. and yeahhh, they dont have any expectation. yup, bt well, there are so many paisey moments. becose YEAH, IM THE FST ONE, and i have NO IDEA wats gg to happen. paisey moments.. 1) ME, Kong seng and ben were in a room tgther. Then kong seng was like " can you pls excuse us for a moment". then i was like "ok sure". (not moving anywhere.) then kongseng was like "erm, i mean, cn u wait outside for awhile". HAHAHAH.WTH.CB SO EMBARRASING NK MAMPOS CAN?! 2) showing my drawing. me : " yeah, so actually i took drawing module and im very stong at it" yeah, i talk mcm real ah. and the nxt thg i knw, they were laughing.hahaha. ben gay was like laughing so hard. and karen tang was like smiling and tapping my back. and suddenly i realise. I WAS BOASTING.HAHAHHAHAHHAA.CB! kongseng: ok show us you...
k back.heh. skipped work tday cose apparently i was so tired! woke up at 8 plus am -_- go to cik norma's hse and sit there like berok till 1 plus. -_-.idk why the hell we have to go out so early then. hisy. with the guest coming in and out, there i was sleeping at one corner. cannt take it ah. ergh. yah, skip2. 2 oclock plus, the nikah took place. some of the plan actually failed.haha. bt its okay. nikah was very TOUCHING! GROOM was super cute lahh. haha.his face like want to nangis all the way. and he's kinda STIFFF, like he's a frightened mouse. hahahhah. but, he;s KUHYIUUTTT.ok STOP. kak ya was damn georgous too! and there was the tok kadi, making jokes here and there. haha. okayy.yahh.tts all fr nw. pics will be uploaded soon. cose im super malas nw, and i am planning to start on 3D. YAWNS. kk bye.
lets see. IM FIRST ON THE LIST AMONG THE DIDMS TO BE ACCESSED ON PD! GOD, i nearly freaked out when i found tt out. becose, YEAH WELL, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT IS GNNA BE LIKE. AND BEING THE FIRST, WONT BE MUCH OF A HELP. AND WORST, i rmbered telling awin " relax ah awin, lage lama ape " smthg like tt, and MAN, WHAT FATE I HAVE, BEING THE FISRT ONE. haha.tu lah, nk boast sgt kn. NYESAL AKU. anw, ive to complete fillzilla transfering by sunday LATEST. 3D MODELLING BY FRI. SOUND EFFECTS BY TUES. argh tiring, and within an hr or so, im off to work. until 3, and yeah, woke up morning, im rushing to woodlands for my cousin's nikah. then i guess, i rushing off to work at 6pm till nx morning. and sunday, ill be skipping work. early in the morning, i have to be at woodlands to help out. and i guess, finishing by arnd evening, i'll be back at night. AND MAMPOS. ILL BE DEAD TIRED BY TT PINT OF TIME. heh. lets see eh, what happens during the weekends. i blog again by monday aites...
1) IDK how tt fucking guy actually grades. 2) IM SICK of people contacting me when they're in TROUBLE. 3) I DISLIKE MYSELF for being STUPID AND SLOW. 4) I DISLIKE IT MORE WHEN PEOPLE put me DOWN. 5) IM SAD when i see my frens achieving smthg, while I DON'T. 6) I DONT LIKE THE LOOK OF MYSELF. 7) FAILURE? 8) IM TIRED, and my mind's in a mess. I cant do anythg right. 9) WHY ME? 10)SORRY MOM, u gave birth to a useless daughter. ... no wonder i hated myself.
GOD. SUPER TIRING. haha.was supposed to do 3D modelling today. turn out, i was kinda engrossed with after effects and so there u got it, learning by tutorials. from morning to night shiol. i was like WANTING TO LEARN so many effects. until right at this moment, i feel like fainting alrdy. heh. my head spinning alrdy. bt its okay! i wanna learn as much so i cn produce better works with AE. COSE AE IS AWESOME AND COOOOOOL! WOOHOO. haha. kk right, tmrw's fri. sch :( yawns. kk byee.
sigh, sigh SIGH. pity my father. i cn totally see hw much pressure he is under right now. and part of this is because of my small brother. talkng abt the $500 fine about the contraband cigg. there comes another $300 fine because he was underage, while buying cigg. and add to his $100+ hp bills. omg. stress giler babi sak. and for a month, my mom's nt working. my father's the only sole breadwinner of the family. bills,fines,bills. never ending my stupid big bro dosent seem affected. it totally would help if he took a part time job instead of staring at the lptop the whole day during weekends. he's a guy some more and the oldest among us. HOW CN HE NOT FEEL WORRIED when HERE I AM WORRYING ABT ALL THIS. and my stupid small bro, everyday go out, cari keje konon. last2, satu sen nyer keje tk dpt. bnyk nyer penipu. sumpah aku tk paham apa kepala otak dia tngh pikir. susahkn mak bapak. pentingkn kawan2 sial kt luar. hari2, mak bapak membebel, smpai penat. mcm masok kiri keluar kan...
so bored. baik bsk ut, aku relax aje. haha. tkpe, bsk cn study. im resting my mind. today's prob kinda easy, since it's a grp work. at last, im able to slack here and there. and also having fun producing a blue screen. and dang! its been a long time, ive seen Z1P.(CAMERA) hancorm everyone fgt hw to use alrdy.haha. pity the cameraman, kancong giler. haha.as usual, i always take the easiest role. soundman naseb baik film dlm bilik. sng keje aku.haha. yeah! tts all lah fr nw. dwnloaded photoscape back.haha MISSSSSS PHOTSCAPE EFFECTS AH! ps.buy my dec calender okay. cose, i look sexy here.WTH! haha. and 2nd pic mcm phm ah konon! credits to director awin, yg tkde keje.haha. yg 3rd tu, untok bff tersygku.hahah. .... dah bye!
argh, today, i frust giler. AND well, its all because of the prob statement. so bloody confusing. so tiring to think ah. ergh! i felt like shooting the faci dead. so tt the PROB WILL BE SOLVED! haha. nvm, anw, i hope whatever i learn today stick to my head. cose, apparently my memory is like nenek tua alrdy. HAISHHHHHHHHEY BEDAH! anw took taxi to sch tday :D heh. not evyday, i got free ride. thanks hamizah!haha. ut was oooh-kayy. some of the ques is nonsensical. tsk. ... what else eh. u ALL SHOULD GO SEE THE MOON TONIGHT! AWESOME betul ciptaan tuhan! :) thinking back, im nt such a good muslimah these few days. always like to maki.hehe. ill try to minimise all this. COSE I LOVE TUHAN! hehe.okayyyy. ... all talk is no use. PROVE IT.
right. lemme update this space for awhile. 3 days straight working. goodness, when im sleeping also, im dreaming abt picking up calls. NOT GOOD!haha.kes INTO work so much eh. life's okay. customers were behaving well. nt much of a bitchy situation. and what else. tmrw's mondayy again. *sighs*. and there's ut which i didnt knw until ystrdy. 6p's kinda useless. guess have to use my experience alrdy. heh.cm phm. okay, im hoping for a better week. i realise tt my life kind dead. i will have my life back. SOON. .... the feeling is weird. its like a certain loneliness is taking over me. argh.let this feeling go away.. .... enjoy some of today's pics. after work. :) ps.look at the tak menjadi jump shots.hahha. :p .....
hi there again! its raining and the feeling is awesome. BUT when i think abt work later on, its like SPOILING my whole mood alrdy. boring ah. what to do. wanna go out also gt no moneyy. hisyy. right nw, financial's kinda tight. tried to help my mom in whatever ways possible. my bro keep giving trouble. lepas satu, satu. this is what u get when u have no sch and mix with the jahanams friends. ergh! im so mad. no moneyy to buy cigarretes, he bought the contrabands. and nw, kena caught must pay $500. BODOH RIGHT! and on top of tt, he have this $100+ hp bills. and if he did work nvm ah. HIS CHOICE of works are all ridiculous and dumb. at last lagi menanggung hutang lage ade. i wonder why this boy refuse to chge for the better. EVERY DAY, my parents advised him w/o fail. yet he keep doing stupid thgs. makin besar makin tk pakai otak. sighs. idk what these teenagers are thinking nwadys. are they brainless or what?! slashing others for no reasons. as young as 16, kena hanged. isnt tt stup...
HAHA.tukar lagi. cannot angkat ah.when i see the CACATNESS AT GOOGLE. NO VERY WAY AM I GG TO SHOW TT AS MY BLOG. sighs. here i am back where i belong.hahaha. this skin wants me back. .... anyways. today 3d was ohkayyyyyyyyy. kinda interesting ah. mcm WOW.since kita2 jakon nk mamps. later gg to bugis for fyp. leceh siak. travel here and there. bt nvm, gt free transport.thx awin! haha. and tday fri-sun WORK SPELL ME B-O-R-I-N-G can? IM SO NT LOOKING FORWARD TO WORK. YAWNS.
okay. tukar lagi. apparently.i was hurt by HAMIZAH. BECAUSE SHE SAID, ITS TOO PLAIN. WHERE GOES MY DESIGN SKILLS AND SUCH. CIS. hahah.here i am stealing another pple's layout. i wanna make my own. BUT No time lah :( one day lahhh.hehe. shop till u drop? hha.not me at all. i DONT shop.tsk me!haha kkkk.toodlessss. there's a taggyy board too hamizah.hahha
i just finished a book of novel. AWESOME i tell you. jalan cerita sungguh menarik. didnt even take my eyes off the book until my mom said i smell.hahha. and so i bathe. okay2.tk perlu. anw my leg hurts a lot. ystrday i almost walked arnd with a broken heel. thank god i realise it,or not, malu giler babi ah. and so, i changed to a new one and darn! hw terrible the pain is. terkoyak skin aku. its hard to sleep when the pain gets to u when u move ur leg. so annoying lah. and when i finally got to sleep, this bloody noise comes. drilling in the morning. pissed off siak. ... ah kay. gtg nw. toodles.
hermoine with short hair looks kinda aweful. but sexy. heh.anw. HARRY POTTER AND DEATHLY HALLOWS! kecoh harry potter fan. nw harry potter lose his cuteness ah.i prefer him when he's small. nw, i think RON is kinda cute!except tt he looked like an albino. yg mcm penyakit org terlalu putih. ahah. expecto petrolum!
HEHE. i cannot stand looking at my blog. its getting too dark. ervythg's black. mcm blog tkde life. so here i am, making my blog less lifeless. temporary blogskin.i knw its a bit too simple. bt i like it simple. bear with it until i make some effort to chge to another better layout. kecik hati org yg buat ni layout.haha anw, hari raya haji was ok. went to nenek hse. oh the food was AWESOME! the spread was OLALAAAA. and my makcik's pregnant again!.:) hope she didnt go through abortion like the last time. and puhlease, this is doc's advice, nt because she had an illegitimate child eh! and oooo met my fav cousins. siol.terperanjat berok aku tngk satu2. dah besar lah sey! ok this sounded stupid. haha. and yup, tt's all. i lost my thumbdrive again. stress sia! jaga benda kecik mcm ni eh. ergh. kk bye peeps
:) YEAH BABY!.tmrw's officially a public holiday! heh. aalahh, my wed is alrdy an off day, so dosent make much diff to me. ANYWAYS, ITS HARI RAYA HAJI! a day to celebrate for all muslims. of course, there's a meaning behind this very day. hmm. i just appreciate those who had sacrifise their time, energy and money on me. anythg that uve given to me. i swear i appreciate all this. esp to my parents. ILYSM! thank you for bringing me up!. i knw, im nt such a good daughter. mcm troublesome SOMETIMES, but, i will NOT fget all those sacrifises uve done. *cries* insyallah, i'll pay back every tiny thg uve done for me. :)) hehe. and for my friends, esp the close ones. if ive owed u people money. alahh halalkn je lah. sacrifise duit korg. mcm sedekah lah tu.hahahaha. okay ill stop before i'll get slapped.haha. dont worry, ill pay back. insyallah.jst remind me k. smtimes, i like to feign ignorance.hahaha. kk.i love u pple too! :) haish, i miss my cousin so much. since ""...
hello, today's illustration. and well, im early!hehe. that is the ZAFIRAH i knw, always on time AND ready to sch.haha. okay whatevuh. today's lesson is to create a card for ourselves! exciting! bt well, many of us fget abt the criteria that is required. that includes me. at last a lil bit hancor here and there. but who cares. we're at our learning stage. :D so, no prob.heh. ... aside frm that. AKU MALU GILE BABI. ive wondered hw long ive been looking like a fool. god. i hope it dosent happen again. ... k dah.. tmrw VERY BORING LESSON WITH A NAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGY NAGGGGGGGGYYYYYYYY FACI. nenek aku pn tk bbl bnyk mcm dikni.heh. kkk.dh byee. ... call me baby.hehs
OMG.agony and pain. tts wat im feeling right nw. OH BABY, IM SO WEAK, i might faint anytime. haha. ive been curling up like a ball since morning. lying on the bed like a crippled person. all because of the menstrual pain. ergh.i dunch like it. belom nk beranak, dah rasa mcm nk terberanak. okay whatever. i dn wanna move too much and that includes my hand typing. haha. sgt kecoh. bye!
hi hello. long time never update siol! nt tt im lazy, i always fget.hehe. anw, life's like that. sch is boring as usual. nthg to be happy abt when fyp is in shambles. haha. work is mundane. ystrday went to work alone. it was a bit depressing to go alone. bt well, dh biasa jln sorg, keje sorg, buat ape2 pn sorg. so, it dosent make much diff to me. pe lage eh. tu je lah. takde mood nk update. bye.
fucking rude. ikotkn hati aku, dah lama aku sepak muka dia. tak sedar diri dia siapa. tak tau yg slama nk MAK DIA YG tanggung makan minum dia. bayar duit bill hp dia. tapi ini lah anak kurang ajar. pekik2 kt mak sendiri. tengking2. padehal yg salah obviously dia. ini lah, anak yg tk kenang BUDI. ape dia nk mesti dia dapat. ah sial?! ko pentingkn betina kt luar. kwn2ko yg perangai mcm sial kt luar dari mak bapak ko ah? ko tngk lah. org yg kurang ajar ngn org tua. mesti dapat padahnya. and since KO tak respect MAK. JGN HARAP org lain nk respect ko. bodoh nk mampos. tkda otak. anak lelaki mmg menyusahkn mak bapak. kecik2 tknk mampos dah besar, bikin susah org.
im so dissapointed with the people arnd me. that cancer stricken woman from fb, turn out to be a scam. thank god, im NOT very stupid to believe all her stupid lies. ive no motivation to work anymore. the sight of the room makes me wanna go home. the sight of telephone makes me wanna break it into half. and do not even mention the pay ive got. sighs. im so gg to quit. if this is the shit im getting for slogging so hard. might as well i donate the fucking training fees to them. sighs. ive enough of people condemning me. say all you want. i dn wish to know. bye
sucks like hell. im down wif throat infection. no wonder whatever i ate, it all felt like coming out again. yup, fever, cough, and running nose + throat infection. tons of pills to swallow. euw. ergh nw my nose felt like its burning. okay people. off for nw. bye. ps.thanks to all who had wished me to get well soon! i will nw with all these scary pills. :)
i woke up with a damn heavy head. and a darn hot body. cannot tahan. i even skipped subuh.hisy.perangai syaitan betol. woke up like afternoon. and lepak again at sofa. checked my temperature and it was over 38.8 degrees. no wonder i felt like my head is coming off. haha. im sick nt becose of fyp of course. that darn hasinah, a fren of mine spread her disease at me. i rmembered her coughing directly at my face. gosh mcm nk tampar muka dia pn ade. haish, if only my parents would notice that Im sick. think i like sleeping all day long and nvr do anythg. haish. and i nvr brought up the point of gg to the doctor. cose its no use. they'll jst say use other pple obat and all. waste money ah. im waiting for my money, so i can go doc using MY MONEY. argh. okay i wanna go lepak at my bed. felt so bad abt missing fyp meeting tmrw. so sorry guys.
oh no. i feel sick all over again. shialllllllllllllllll lah. benci aku. ONCE i get the bloody germs. ill be sick for more than a month! hw terrible is tt! gosh, i hope drinking warm water helps lah. anws, erm work was HORRENDOUS this week. customer satu2 perangai mcm babi. esp those cina nyonya yg nk mati2 nk makan. STUPID IDIOT, if i say i cant take ur order means I CANT DO ANYTHG AH SIA. tak paham bahasa. ge mampos lah ngn org mcm gyni. sng hati aku picit RELEASE button. nk complain korg punyer pasal. klah sch was okayy. nthg much to say ah. k toodles.