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AWW. I LOVE MY HOD. she actually gave me a red packet. and inside is like $50. omg, chinese people are so rich can. i think $50 is the minimal amt they wud give for any occasions. when my TA got married, he received $50 too. how generous :)) anw, it was for my advanced birthday. so sweet! kalau aku, nk keluarkn $10 pon seksa. hee. oklah whateves. gdbye!.

those moments we can sit down and talk for hours. :) talk abt anything, everything. those times where i can be honest, thank you for trusting me, hopefully i can do you proud. for myself, parents, you, thank you, Allah for everything. :) Alhamdulillah.

  ILY.

though its been long since ive accept all this as is it. there's no doubt that there's this tiny hope, this tiny hope, that u will turn back into the old you. i miss the closeness btwn us. i miss the times whereby there are actually no one else except me and you. i miss the feeling of having only you wholeheartedly. oh. i miss the past. and i so miss the old you. xoxo.

shucks. my stomach been acting up these few days. this is because i have not emptied out my bowels for few days nw. and my stomach dosent feels good. gahh.

OH MY GOSH. I AM SO BORED. totally nothing to do................... haiz.what shall i dooooooooooooooooo.................. *singalong* ohhh tell me what to dooooo. ohhhhhh tell me what to dooo. almost 5 hrs left, and it seems pretty far. movies perhaps?since there are no other ways.... i promise you Delila, *pause* haha.ok. dah masok lagu Delila pulak kan. maybe i should research on what courses i should take during my first semester. but i feel.. oh.so.lazy haha okokkkkkkkkkk. ntg to blog abt also, heee.have a nice day!

I just read an article : Peristiwa Ajaib Yang Berlaku Di Bumi Gaza! Read here: http://www.illustrasiaku.com/peristiwa-ajaib-yang-berlaku-di-bumi-gaza/?fb_action_ids=10151270777332661&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582 I read and i almost cried because I was very very touched. I know god wouldnt leave the Muslims fighting on their own. Alhamdulillah. with the almighty help from god, the war was stopped.and yes, at least things are looking better for our Muslim friends over there. :) I am so happy. and I'm happy god heard our prayers to save the people there. To the unbelievers, what do u say huh? u can have thousand of millitaries. but well, we have Allah swt. we have GOD. and in the end, YOU'RE gonna lose. We die, we go to heaven, You die, you go to hell. we've got nothing to lose. that is the greatness of Islam. :)) xoxo Proud Muslim

:)) He makes me smile. This guy here sums up the word Humanity. He is rich, and he uses a part of money for donation. He is rich and famous and yet he donates his blood. He is rich, famous, handsome and yet he dosent have a tattoo. Well he is a person worth looking out for. I sincerely pray and hope that God will give him the guidance to embrace Islam, and well, be a part of us! MUSLIMS! :) if he can leave his past life and live a new one as a MUSLIM, i will be the happiest girl alive. plus some other million of peoples out there. hee. AMIN. IN SYAA ALLAH. if god permits.

soooooooooooooooooooo boring. time passes so slowly when there's zero things to do. and my TA is ever so busy doing so computer stuff. i wish i can help him. bt im like an alien with the computer connection etc. technical stuff and all. just not me. kesian tu mamat. saturday and sunday also he came back to settle computer stuffs at general office. pity him. and me. i am ever so free trying to figure out wat to do. watched few movies. until i got bored. and thankfully, by the time i finished the movie, it was time to go! and i was sure sleepy. haha.tsk. and the lab is scaring me ah. there's like many weird sounds coming from all over the lab. gosh. hopefully whtever it is, they dont disturb me sudah. oklah. bye. im sleepy

Sunday. Agama class was okay. went in very late. sighs. i dont like being late for class. esp when it is the start of a new module. what would the teacher thinks? so embarrassing. anw, yes, it was  an ustaz instead of ustazah, the ustaz reminds me of one of the ustaz who teaches me bahasa arab i think. bt this ustaz was suprisingly entertaining. and i thought class was gonna be boring. bt well, alhamdulillah it went just fine. in fact 41/2 hr dosent even feels long. :) anw, after class, went to bugis. prayed at masjid sultan bfore rushing to illuma to catch Twilight. it was okayyy, it wasnt really great. just ok. i totally hate the fighting part. idk why, but all the time they were fighting, my heart was racing so fast. it's like im having panic attack. i have this fear inside me. i just dont knw. bt one thing for sure, i hated the loud music effects. the bg music was dark and terrifying. the whole time i covered my ears from all the sounds and music. i...

Its jst weird hw fasting changes a person. when im fasting, it's feels natural to open a cookbook and look at receipes or maybe (FOOD). hahahaha. and tk sangka aku rajin research online psl makanan. bt really, i think since my parents alrdy chge the stove, there's no other reasons for me nt to learn hw to cook right? haha. ok give me time, and i will master how to cook. NASI GORENG. the simplest (yet hardest for me, since im an ameteur) ohwells, i have to start smwhere right. end up, i will buy the ready made paste and cook it with rice.haha. pemalas. haha. OMG.SO EMBARRASSING. K TOODLES.

why u kill my bestfriend? i love him. i love him.. why u keep coming? why? u come at night, i cannot sleep. why u keep coming? In his eyes I see the sun, In his smile I see the moon. And I wonder, I only wonder Who is weak, and who is strong?  Who is right, and who is wrong? And I wish, I only wish, That the truth has a tongue.. :'( from a 5 year old girl... even a 5 yr old have a sense of humanity in her. adults should be ashamed of themselves. tsk.

Staff dinner was fine. okok.ate non-stop. there were like 8 courses of food? im nt sure. bt all the time, we were eating and eating. the food was okk. not fantastic, just ok. anw there were cereal prawn! :) hee. and yah what else, nthg exciting there, we had games and lucky draw. sighs. im always unlucky. even my TA won something. *cries* haha. the top price was like IPAD and IPAD MINI. jelous much. nvm, berysukur apa yg ada. yah la. tts kinda all for the staff dinner. wasted money cabbing to the wrg place. and cabbed again. cannt trust my TA for directions. haha.hancur dua2. and i wore a flowery long dress :O hahah.lol much. okaylah. till here. nk xinmsn kejap.haha

haizz. so embarrassing. country being bombed, people being killed. and yet, they did not leave their responsibility towards god to pray 5 times a day. and us over here, mcm tk bersyukur. smbhyg pon malas.smua pon mls. maksiat pon bnyk. tnggu malapetaka nk smpai baru nk berubah ke? the war at gaza is supposed to be an eye-opener. just so embarrassing la. malu dgn org islam kt Palestin. haiz. semoga Allah berikan kita hidayah untuk berubah. amin..

Now now, how the heck are we similar? :O I mean compare Bella and Me, not my mom.

Me and familia. My mama and me and my pet. oh no, its nt real :p Inside flower dome. Cloud Forest. (Waterfall. AHHH!) Went to Gardens By The Bay with my familia on saturday. We went with groups of peoples in buses. i feel so kental having to go in groups because mcm u knw kental. haha.ohwell, bt end up i think it's an awesome idea bcose, first transport is provided. we took a big bus to marina bay. save money woi! then food is provided. they had nasi lemak.yummy! and transport back home is also provided! u see. this is an excursion for the lazy peoples! haha.and the price is just 12 bucks. and we went to flower dome and cloud forest. flower dome was okay. the great thg is it was air-conditioned. and i thought it would be scorchingly hot. haha. and there were flowers of course. a lot of cactus. haha. the scene was really panaromic. u would wanna stay there for hours. bt that is if ure a nature lover. if nt i...

I wish the people would stop making technology more advanced. seriously. too much of technology is not good. somehow people forget how is it to have fun. everything nw is about gadgets/hp etc. such wonders human can do. such wonders what they can think of. from a payphone to a touchscreen phone. from a computer to laptop to ipad. phones getting larger and thinner. everything nw is about gadgets and technology. we are losing humanity man. we are gonna live in a robotic world soon. its gonna be black and white. haiz. anw my main concern is the electricity all of us are consuming. HOW SCARY. Billions of people. and our daily life is based on technology, imagine the electricity that we use everyday. charging our phone overnight, evryday. charging laptops/ipads/computers. aircons at billions of buildings. omg. i am really scared. our natural sources are depleting. in a rate that u can nvr imagine. greenhouse effect. global warming. forest fires, drought flood...

Dear god, Please give your help to the Palestin people at Gaza.Even though I dont really knw what is happening over there, I somehow am aware of the bombing and the endless war that is happening between the Palestiniens and Israeliens. Please save the innocent ones, Please give them your protection. I pray that this war will end soon because i just dont see the need of the killing/masacre/bombing. Sighs. Please shed some light to the enemy's heart. I just want this world to be a happy place to live in. haiz. the world is a scary place to live in right now. Ya Allah, peliharakn diriku dari segala keburukan dan kejahatan di luar sana. Jauhkan diriku dari perbuatan manusia2 yg jahil. Selamatkn kami dari fitnah dunia. Semoga kami sentiasa di bawah naungan dan rahmatmu. Amin.

Such a beautiful day. and my video is almost done! yahoo. yesterday friday marks the end of sch. *breathe a sigh of relief* the past few days are havoc. so many things to do. teaching p6 excel is like teaching short term memory people. as soon as they get back to their seat, they will ask me again what to do. tsk. that is the difficult part of teaching IT. dont knw hw to listen, dont knw hw to read instructions. end up, everything back to square 1. fed up betol. and the best part of teaching is scolding. haha.  there's one class i literally shouted at them to SHUT UP. and then came silence. *crickets* and after that it will be such a breeze to teach. haha.sumpah no teaching skills. haha. ok whtevers. today is saturday! weeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and, nx wk, there will be excel training for staff!! including me. hw exciting!hahah.yahoo! :)) k bye.

I FEEEEEEL SO MAD. the due date is over and ive only realise it today. sighs. its like 1/3 of the works wasted. see, im rushing against time, and I LOST. idk what to say to the kids who have been staying back for the past week or so. now, its over. sighs. but smhw i feel glad a heavy burden is off my back. bt what am i gonna say to the kids, HOD, teacher in charge. my carelessness. i cant even get the dates right. that aside, im glad to have a Tuesday off. happy deepavali my friends!! :))

Oh my. I swear the whole generation of their family can't sing. Haha. Ok. Thank god it was a happy occasion. If nt I would have nt hesitate to thrw cold water down. Hehe. Anw, there's smtg wrg with me. The person I hated most before, smhw my mind wouldn't stop thinking of tt person. I rmbred this phrase whereby, the person u hated most will be someone u will love most someday. Ish. No no. It's nt gonna happen. Impossible. Kk bye.

I hope u knw ur limits. I am trying my best to be patient. If there is nth good to say I'd rather u keep quiet. Idk what ur motive is  saying hurting words. As long I can be patient, I will. But the moment i lose my patient, all of us knw wht the outcome will be. So, Know.your.limits

friday already. thank god. the past few days had been tiring. having after sch training session with the IT students, i wanna to get this competition over with. tk mng pon tkpe. dah penat aku. and i'm very short-tempered these days. what else. it's bcose of the litter in the lab. the messy chairs and computers. very irresponsible teachers. i feel like locking all the lab doors and nt letting any class use the labs. ergh! ahh anw yesterday i attended a meeting to represent my HOD. wahh feeling2 org besar getu.hehe. so awkward. anw i dont quite understnd the content of the meeting. i just sat there and nod my head mcm phm whenever she's talking and looking at me. it scares me out of my wits when she go round the table asking questions which I DO NOT HAVE an idea what they're talking abt.haha. and of course, i couldnt say IDK.so embarrassing. i just gave them an ans even though it's nt right.haha. oh and it's a raffles girls pri sch! wahhh.so...

ahh. i want more of today. its been so long since i had so much fun. :))

goodness, i just cut a whole bunch of hair behind because i cant seem to find a way to untangle it back. felt like 5 snakes entagled into each other and wont let go of one another! haha. i was so frustrated. and worst, i cut it at sch. and hid it below the table. i guess any teacher who found the mysterious paper wrapping below the table would get a shock of his/her life. haha. #whatlazypeopledo. anw i cant see what my hair looks like behind.haha. nvm, i think ive gt talent of cutting hair w/o looking at the mirror. my mom can cut hair, so do i :) but, well, im better than my momma. x2 k merepek. bye

my oh my. its been raining these few days. the weather's been down. perfectly describes my feelings. but i'll wait, because after the rain, comes the sunshine. and after the storm, comes the rainbow. for i knw, even through the darkest period, comes the light. so fear not, we shall make it through this difficult times. imy.

friday. day was fine. there was no students since it was marking day. but smhw, they call it Admin day. which sounds very ridiculous. heh. anw,i was greeted by free soya bean curd and also a packet of drink from my collegue. so sweet of them :) gosh, tt so reminds me. my packet of TEH is still under the table in the lab. my gosh :O haha. anw, me, Mr Ravi(IT Teacher) and  5 kids from IT Club went out for excursion today! weee. so exciting. first time travelling with the kids. we took a very old run down van. pathetic betol. the sch cant afford a nice van for us. haha.anw that dosent matter. we head down to bukit view sec which we thought the tour was held there. journey was 30-40 mins. when we reached, we received a rude shock. haiz. the tour is actually smwhere else. and annoyingly, the place is like 10mins or less from the sch. its actually at arnd toa payoh too. tsk. blame me and Mr Ravi fr nt reading the email properly. to be honest, i didn...

i miss raju! and my 2 other kitties that i had before. sighs. i badly want a kitten can! MEOWWWWW! grr.

They say that good food makes one forget abt one's unhappiness. that just means that. i just have to have one of this good food. anw im still thinking. still comtemplating. ill let nature takes its course. i believe whatever happens, it is predestined. your call.