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here comes friday. the day has come. hopefully ill be ready to face all this alone. hais. hoping someone can be with me all the time. haiz. why dont i have a sister or what. :( hopefully ill be strong. hopefully times passes fast. hopefully i cn keep myself occupied. hopefullyhopefully. nvm.god will be with me 24/7 tat, i dont have to worry. hmm. anw. i miss my HOD so much! havent see her in ages. hopefully she'll come back soon... ...

Wello!! Omg its alrdy 30th of August! How time really flies when ure busy. haha. anw, yes busyyyyyy as a bee. went everywhere. help the VP, the teachers and lots more. cheyy mcm phm plak aku eh. anw yes. i am happy because, to think that I have lots of to do. when it seemed impossible to complete all that in a day, smhw i managed!! Of course THANK YOU ALLAH! for helping me all the day. :))! alhamdulillah. anyways, tmrw is teacher's day. ok not my day. bt im feeling very-so-happy, ohwells, i do not expect any gifts of course. because well, i dont even have my own class. but well, some p2 kids actually give me a cert award for being the BEST TEACHER. OMG :') nk cry! and 1 of them gave me a cute pen with feathers and small flowers in between. :') nk nangis can. so touching. i didnt even meet them everyday. and yet they give me all this. aww! ok i will upload some pics soon. soooooooon. ahh fri to sun. i'll be away to my cousin weddin...

Pheewit! Double Pheewit! haha.anw i had no idea someone took my photos. Suddenly je muka aku di suratkhabar.ahahah.whatever eh!lol.

OMG. its been a week since i blogged. blame it on my busy schedule!haha CHEY! lol. anw raya was okayy.. i didnt expect to get any money. but alhamdulillah.some still gave,haha. i knw why! because my bros are still in ns right. so basically they still qualify for duit raya. and of course they dont want me to feel tersisih u see. if they give my brothers, how do u think i feel ?? :'( exctly.hahaha. chey padehal. i dont care 2 hoots abt money.haha. anws, we went greyish this yr. shitty color.but well, the color kinda look nice under the sun. haha.omg rubbish much. anw. work was gg fine. my TA is gg MIA nx wk. 4 days :(((( he's getting married in the middle of a busy week!haha. kentot dia.haha. wahhh. he sure receive a lot of $$. cant believe the people here are actually so generous.haha. anw what else eh.. i feel like shitting now. Erm Monday. i have high tea.haha.lol. mls ah nk ge dah la my bff at work tkde.haha. sighs la.! anw the TA replac...

Gosh ive been busy these few days. There's a lot of work gg on. I was so worried I wont be able to complete evrythg on time. but alhamdulillah. I've managed to do all, and even though not all are done yet, at least almost all are done! :) and yes yes, today ( Saturday ) marks the end of Ramadan. Of course im gonna miss waking up during sahur, missing the hot sun, breaking fast at home/outside / terawih and such. But well, it's over :( But insyaallah, hopefully i am able to taste the sweetness of Ramadan nx yr and the following years to come. Insyaallah. I have done many wrongdoings, which i regret of. Please do forgive me, Esp my parents. My brothers, and my closest friends. I'm sorry. Insyaallah i will become a better person in time to come. Okay i will blog another time. my laptop's dying. :) Goodbye! Selamat Hari Raya yerr ! :)

In the darkest time of life. I call for you.Because only you will answer my call and listen to what ive got to say. :) Dear god, Sometimes, I wonder how long am I going to last. I fear that I won’t be able to hold back this feeling of mine which I have been controlling since. I appear strong, but deep inside, I am way too vulnerable. Faith, Patience and Will Power, its keeping me strong and alive deep within. Sometimes, it hurts. It hurts to our loved ones happy with someone else. Someone else. So much so, we want them to be happy, I finally understand that we have to make sacrifices. I can't be foolish enough. Hopefully I got back what I’ve lost. Hopefully I’ll get something better. I trust god. If someone so precious is going to be taken away from me. I know god will send me someone. Someone who will make a difference to my life. And make me the one. The special one. Dear god, please refrain myself from thinking ...

You come once in a year. You come with bringing one hidden special day for us. You come accompanying with the hot sun for one whole month. You come, chaining the syaitan for us. Your arrival, brings heaven closer to us, and door of hell closed for us. Your arrival, we welcome. Your exit, we are saddened to bid goodbye. Ramadan 2012 :) Savour every moment of it. ..... 

Haha i must be the last person on earth to watch this particular girl who posted herself making her signature facial expression at youtube. haha hilarious. not her. i mean all the parody videos of her are hilarious. but at the same time, it's kinda bad to do this to her. no matter how annoying she may look like. it's nt right to make fun of anyone. and perhaps because of all this videos, she might even fall into depression or what? commit suicide. c'mon chill. this girl dont know what she's doing. just being a girl who got nothing better to do in her free time,making a fool of herself. and being more foolish, posting it online. sighs. i just dont understand why there must be too many negative comments. tsk. let her be la. melayu dgn melayu pon nk hina. what we should do is to give her constructive comments or advice. bt i cant blame all this haters from hating. this girl also. haiyo.idk what is the purpose of her making all those weird faces. ...

10 hari terakhir ramadan. starts officially on thursday. argh! i am soooooooooo annoyed with my body! every year have to be like this. exctly the last 10 days, my period have to come. HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. tunggu lah hari raya ke apa. tkpelah nt my rezeki. i kinda pity those people who can fast and pray and yet not take this GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY of a lifetime to catch this particular special day. lailatul qadar. lagi sibok pergi geylang. haizhaiz. if only i can trade with them. haha.ok nvm. anw my period is like WHOOSH. so much blood. its the 2nd day today and i have yet to take any iron pills. hopefully my body can endure. insyaallah. and nw im like hungry!! there's no food that i cn buy. i mean like real foods. gosh.im gonna faint soon if i dont get to eat smtg. and its friday. sch holiday. haiz! why cant the sch let us off on a holiday too. close one eye lah. haiya. okay what else. im happy that i dont really need to shop for hari raya clothes....

Im IN LOVE with this Kid. This is the kid that i mentioned. The one who looks like my small bro when he was small. But tgk balik. mcm tak je.haha. Budak ni lagi cute.hahah! Anw this boy is very cute sey! esp when he talks. selalu mcm faham. but mmg tk faham pon.haha. mulut becok sey!. hehe nk hug dia plssss!! Pri 1 munchkins. haha.ok i dont even knw that word exists. But it represents cuteness.haha. lol.mcm paham!haha Handsome boyzzzz. not so la.haha.bt the one is green. Confirm dah besar, nnti *melts*.haha. Ahhhh this one! anak sape ni! mesti mak bapak lawa. He is soo photogenic. Love his smile esp. aww *melts* *Meowwwwwwwws* aww. Pri 2 boyzzzzz. A bunch of bising kids. *faints*. ahha.but they are a joy to teach. K FAKE.hahaha _____ alright. lets go. First Toa Payoh Pri. Photos credits to : Photographer of school. (Not me k.haha)

wow. i learnt a lot today. SUNDAY. my first fiqh class was with Ustazah Aisyah. the first one hr or so was long and a but draggy. but the excitement came in when Ustazah began to talk from experience. about so many things. first up. DINAR AND DIRHAM. ok this thg has been spreading like wild fire. and from hat i've heard before knowing deeper, is that paper money is haram and also a form of RIBA. at first i thought it was a bit ridiculous. it is. because i dont see how it is riba and why is it haram. and why now? why only now that they brought this up? DINAR AND DIRHAM from what i understand is a form of money transaction to buy goods in the past. that is in the past. but idk why, now they have to bring this up. bcause past and now is so different. it does not fit today's context. and even more contadicting is the people who started all this, i bet they are still using paper money to make any form of purchase. ridiculous. paper money is not haram. i...

i dont like it if the motive is for a good cause. but at the same time, u have to lie abt smtg. c'mon la. disgusting habit. if it happens once more. be sure that i wont be there. tsk. .... dont expect someone to listen, when all u do is to scold and be sarcastic about it. dont expect everyone to agree to what u have to say, even if u just happen to be right about it. respect one's decision. don't force me. because I HATE IT.

argh god. my throat is burning. and im feeling soooooooooo mabok. ah im sick alrdy. half-day urgent leave? haha.ok lets go. bye.

MY GOSH. haha.kental blogging posts when im in sec sch. haha. ergh.i sound so childish!. embarrasing.haha k bye!