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Depressing year 2015. 3 of my hamsters passed away. 2 unexpectedly. and 1 due to old age. (today : 20/9/2015) i am so sad. idk how to describe to all of you that these small pets of mine are the best thg that ever happened to me. they are the meaning of happiness. these lovely creatures. i will have a hard time dealing with 3 losses in a year. i am such a bad owner. haiz. all these 3 hamsters died with wounds all over their body. so much for letting them out of their cages. and they end up fighting. i am so sorry my dear hamsters. i love you guys so much. thank you for giving birth to beautiful hamsters. THANK YOU for giving light to my life at my darkest point. all of you. :'( Orange.  Died at home. I manage to hold him on the morning, before he died. Brownie. Died at the vet itself :'(. I just realised that she was not eating at all, when I was cleaning her cage (after she died). I'm sorry baby, u're proba...

To Allah you return. :'( One of the prob most shocking thg to happen. One of my hamster died. One after another. And this time i never expected it, bcose the hamster that died showed no signs of dying. She dosent look sick, or had any major injuries. And she looked totally fine ystdy. Running around. Allah...i am so heartbroken.. I was lookibg at my hamsters when i saw one of them slumping. And when i nudge her. She gave no response..when i carried her out, her body was very weak..she was trying so hard to breathe. Allah.....i quickly brought her to the vet. The doc tried to revive her..but she breathe her last at the vet itself. I held myself..of course not to break down there. Its so hard when the doc speaks in such a sad tone. Making me more sad.. Hammy..uve been good. The most well behaved of all. U gave birth to 5 beautiful hamsters which i kept only one and.let the rest be adopted. Thank you for making my life happier. There is a hikmah why i am on mc today....

My hatred towards the CHINA PEOPLE is off the chart. officially the most hated people on earth. the most disgusting humans on earth. brainless piece of shit. there is seriously nothing to be proud of; that country. tsk. and yet, we are buying their fake products. i am mostly targeting those people who uses their asses instead of their brains. i CAN NOT AND WILL NOT ACCEPT how cruel and badly they treat animals. that is one thg I WILL NOT STAND. Bloody idiots. Killing is one thing. Torturing is another thg. Heartless humans. i wish that a tornado would just come and blow these people away from Earth. they are not worth living on earth, because they have no heart and compassion for animals and other living things. They eat what normal humans do not. they skin animals alive.. animals like cats and dogs. bloody hell, and make them suffer. they eat all the weird food. no wonder they behave like pigs. THEY EAT PIGS TTS WHY. DIRTY DAMN CHINA PEOPLE. i am basically r...

Sigh. what a mess. everything at work is such a mess. i think this might be it. the breaking point. in one week, like a whole lot of thgs happened. i just dont know who to talk to. my pillar of support, my talking buddy, suddenly shut down on me. i dont even know what is wrong. moody nak mampos so suddenly. i'd rather be alone than talk to moody peoples. thankfully enough. tmrw is half day school. because it is Teacher's Day. and Fri is holiday for the school. idk whether i need to come to work. i hope not. Work is so depressing nowadays. i keep telling myself, be patient. because it is a test from god. i need a break from all this. sometimes working too long in the same place makes you someone people cn step on to. and yeah.. not appreciative, what a crappy place. sick of the people here. depressing place to be. xoxo.