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Well hello 2015! be good to me yeh? :)

That mandatory last day of the year shot! hehe and so, that marks the end of 2014. and it ended quite nicely with the company of my bestprens! can u believe it! it's been more 7 years of friendship! Sec sch, poly, work life. marriage life next perhaps. and i am ever glad that we are still together. even with the busy work and sch schedule. (though im nt that busy..heheh) and for this long, im glad to conclude that u guys are my friends for life! hehe. insya allah! we kinda complete each other eh. anw i apologise if i ever say thgs behind ur backs. haha. i mean, who is not guilty of it? haha. SORRY! i luv u guys la. oh, we went to have our year end late lunch at Arnolds. dangg. ridiculously long. and most of them are malaysss!! i guess malay people are just lazy to cook. INCLUDING ME. haha. all in celebrative mood la before eating, we spend like some annoying moments selfie-ing. i swear the people around us are annoyed. ...

Subhanallah. Part of Malaysia is under water. Look at how bad this is. :( Look at how deep the level of water is... Masya allah. Ya allah, Ampunilah dosa kami.. Ampunilah dosa mereka.. Berikan pertolonganmu kepada mereka. Sesungguhnya tiada pertolongan sebaik pertolonganmu. Amin.ya robbal a la min. :'(

OO-EHM-GEE. SO embarrassing. okay today i had a gathering at my company. they have this Christmas celebration gathering. if it wasn't compulsory i wouldnt have bothered to go. haha. ok anw, i was asked to bring a present that is worth more than $5. haha. what else, i went to the NTUC (not bothered to look around at other shops) and quickly took a CEREAL BOX that is worth $5.90. Because apparently I could not find anything that is exactly $5. hahahahhaha. sengkek betol. ohwells, i choose a cereal box because it is heavy and it looks good when wrapped. hahaha ok so, over there, we played some games. and then comes the exchanging of gift. we all took our gift turn by turn. a guy called Joel took my box. apparently all of us played a game during the picking of present. some of them actually shook the box. OMG.HAHA. and some figured out what was inside. "CEREAL" confirm! haha. i said nothing of course. Hoping that no one will figure out that it was mine. ...

Why is it you that i see whenever i close my eyes? i'm in cloud 9........heheh

OMG.  I think I'm having a trauma! and this is because my dumb hamster think she is slim. haha. in the middle of the night, i heard screechings, and immediately I woke up, thinking that "OH NO", a hamster might have escaped. and they crossed path, and yeh fight. As usual. I have the habit of letting a hamster roam around at night. ok anws, that wasnt the case. My female was STUCK, in between smtg that is made of steel. OMG. I PANICKED LIKE CRAP. and she was like screeching in pain I guess. It was the most pitiful sight. My hamster was fat mind you. And her body was like squashed. I tried to pull the side of the steel to make some space. But to no avail! I took scissors to try and cut an opening, but failed. OMG, first time I was so scared and seriously panicking. after trying like 10-15 mins, I decided to wake my smaller brother up. And I dont understand how guys can be so calm. He merely turn the thg upside down and WALLA, the hamster scurried out. -_- i was...

Idk what this world is becoming into. I am fearing for my life, fearing for the future. Indeed the end is near. Its really scary to see the condition of this world now. Killings are so frequent,its like a norm now. Those who kills dont knw why they kill, and those killed dont know why they are killed. Suicides are just everywhere. Raping is a common thg now. Sex is in the streets. Nudity is what people wear now. HIV, AIDS, EBOLA and many more deadly diseases on the rise. Natural disasters.. Gay marriages are legalized now. We are brought back to the Jahiliyyah days, before the prophet Muhammad was born to lead the mankind. Where everthg was a chaos. We are here now. Someone once said that the earth is round. What happened in the past will reach back to us. Social, political, economic problems. The poor becomes poorer, the rich becomes richer. Greed. Injustice. Unfairness. Inequality. When leaders lead for the sake of power and money. People suffers. I am so ter...

#alhamdulillah. Journey ends here for SPI class. So basically we are the survivors baby!! Haha. 1 year of friendship. 1 yr of studying, memorizing, exam. An here we are! Alhamdulillah i cant express my gratitude to Allah for giving me the opportunity to study again. :) and yeh meeting this bunch of people who makes lesson more exciting and engaging! Not forgetting the ustaz abd ustazah. Got the best ones too. Masya allah. They certainly inspire me to become a better person. Their level of knwledge is ntg compared to mine. Insya allah i will advance to the next stage nx yr. For knowledge sake. Syukran ya allah!

Because it's all for the name of fun! haha. padehal dah boring kat sini.lol

The amount of papers to be studied for the next 2 weeks!. And aloha! SPI-E is over! Heee. What a train ride.. this is sure express. So fastttt. But the knowledge i learn is worth all that la. Its nt about exam. Bt whether what we learn, we apply it to our lives and to make a diff to others too. 1 year SPI. Its really a meaningful journey. Made friends with the diff kind of people. I see people leave SPI halfway bcose they cant cope. People come and go. Memories. And now the class which started of full class is left with less than 15 people. I am totally awed with this friend of mine who is taking her masters at the same time. She sure got her hands full with assignments, classes and exams. She has a load of thgs on her mind. But this awesome girl is still here! She is a motivation for me. Seriously with the amount of workload, i would just drop evrythg. Maybe dropping SIM wasnt a bad thg afterall. Hehe. And aside frm all the studies, she is ...

Sometimes i feel that. I have no purpose in life.. Sometimes i envy.. Those who lead a happy life with their family and friends. Those who have someone close to them. Those who will do anythg for u. ... Emptiness. In me, i feel nothing.

Sometimes i wonder.. Why i turn out to be like this. ...

I miss the past. I miss the people who were present in my life in the past. Some people are really worth missing. And that , i refer to my previous TA. I really miss him. And after today's incident, makes me realise how  nice he has been with me. No matter how annoying i am..or bossy or whatever i happen to be. He never hurt my feelings. Gentleman. Today is the worst day of my working life. And it involves my new TA and a teacher.  Shockingly there are the last people i would expect to get such treatment. Ok let my story begin Today is Prize Giving Day..and i actually give it a miss bcose well i thought i could help out at the photobooth in the canteen. My intention was to help. But there wasnt really much that i can do bcose apparently there are only one photo printer. And im nt the photograher too bcose my TA was taking pictures. So.i was helping out with distributing the pics and helping the teacher here and there with photoshop. ...

How time flies. and all the pictures above describes all the events that has happened in school. the pictures are taken so beautifully. (by sch OM) and I edited it to make it more visually enhanced. haha photography is not photography without post editing.haha. unless u're a real pro la. ... ok. so, how much i miss this space. been busy for the past few months. with lotsa project and such. at one point, i feel so stressed out, i applied leave and wrote "stress" as the reason. lol. and u know what? the next thg i knw, my HOD went up to find me,  apparently to find out what is making me stress. sweet kan HOD aku!heee. Cant blame the teachers for all this. I'm like so gundu, saying yes to everything. at last i was struggling to finish everythg  at the tight dateline given. one thg i realize abt the teachers here is that. EVERYTHG THEY DO IS SO LAST MIN. so havoc. then make me so stres...

Saddest day of my life.. Is when i have to let go of my baby hamsters to their new owners... haizz. I love u all to bitS and pieces. sorry i have to give u away. If i have a big room with large homes for u all, i would not hesitate to keep all of u with me. 3 baby hamsters gone :(. Hope u love ur new homes and hopefully ur new owners take care of you well. Thank you for being in my life for that short 4 weeks. I will miss u. :'( 2 more to go....

LOL. My mother so cute. Just now, our MP came by with a hoard of people with him. they were doing a short house visiting with everyone in the block i think. (because my block is one the block that is chosen for upgrading ) mcm tkde keje plak. haha. and apparently they were walking the staircase and happened to pass by my house. one of the assistant (i think) saw our house's door not closed, and so, she decided to stop by. she : "hello! MP is here to visit. Do you want to meet the MP and say Hi?" (i was hiding behind the door) My mom: "Huh? no, nvm" (HAHHAHA. she actually rejected to meet the MP)" she : "its going to be for a short while" My mom : *closes the door slowly* she :" Open the door Mdm, just a short hello " (Mp walks down the staircase, with a group of people following him behind) MP: "Hi, how are you" (Shakes hand with mom) My mom : Hi Hi, Good Night. (HAHAHAHA. ni part paling tkley angkat....

Ok so. My mother , my bro and I went to the other 3D musuem at  suntec city. Okoklahh. I prefer the one at sentosa  better. Its abt the sameee. Except that the one at suntec has some different elements in it. Like the fst pic, there was actually gaa coming out of nwhere when u stand infront of the goku. Haha Annoying nak mampos. Terperanjat gegerl. Lol. It was fun la esp for my mom. Bcose she has never seen all this before. Ok anw that aside. Life in sch is good. Im resigning on november. Gonna miss the place..bt well i cant stay there forever. Need to tell myself that i need to look beyond and  nt stay in the safe hole forever. The last video for the sch that i made was childrens day video. So fun to shoot children bcose as much as they annoy me, they are just cute innocent creatures. And children when they talk its just all truth. Ok depends la. Haha. Ok update on my hamsters.. Ok i knw.probably no one wants to k...

24/09/2014 And there u go! a year older! oh how time has flown. this tiny little girl is all grown  up. become more mentel eh! haha. I hope u enjoyed every bit of the day. even though our surprise always GOT SNIFFED OUT BY YOU (annoying pls), it was a day well spent. even though tired macam leg nak tercabut pls. Nurhamizah Bte Omar. Happy 23rd Birthday to you! I hope our friendship really last as long as possible. there are times we argued over silly stuffs. but arguments are supposed to make a relationship stronger. (i read it up somwhere). haha, so.well, behave yourself. jangan gatal please. i know ure at ur peak where every boy u see, u will bite ur lips.hahaha. that goes to deavi. NO matsaleh please. later mak radha will have a shock of her life. ahha. :) HEHE. Happy birthday! sayang kau!  MUACKS. OK SO, anw on her birthday we went to several places. i was supposed to join from morning, but unfortunately i have to w...

Finally done with tafsir!!!! Phewww. Hehe. Managed to memorize like 3 new long surahs within a short period of time. Fuhhh. Just now exam, i managed to recite them. Alhamdulillah :) Bahasa Arab exam on Sunday. And last pergas exam will be on Monday! Wheee. And here comes the next module! Anyway I still feel very sad....haha I'm gonna miss my very close work buddy. I miss him already. Almost the whole school tease me saying I will cry when he leave. And he will cry too. Haha lol. Almost true la. I won't cry la duh. But the very sad feeling is overwhelming sey.. Lunch time...we all had a surprise lunch treat with the general office people. We all ordered Popeyes! Like a lot pls. Last lunch together :( Haizzz wherever I walk in school I will remember him. That bad. I was very very close to that guy. What to do. Both of us are just the living souls working in the lab. So it's no surprise that we are so close. Tomorrow I'm gonna need to set up radios...

Reused photo.hahah. today (17/9/2014) marks Chris's last day in FTPPS. sadness fills the air. 2 years come to 3 years spending like more than 8 hours with him each day. that wacky personality. the nonsensical perangai. the person i look up to if anything happens. the person i will call even he is on mc. haha. its awesome getting to know u! i will miss u surely. thank you for being so ever ready to help. being like a brotherly figure to me. being the person i look up to. thank u for being my video assistance. my lesson assistance. and many more.. i wish u all the best for ur future. hopefully u can visit the school. eh aku ni cakap mcm dia baca blog aku plak. haha. oklah till here :') thanks for the memoriessssss. :)) kental face. 2 years ago.lol

just what i need to keep myself going. ...

Okay..soooooo.... it's been like 2 days having another trainee TA in the houseeee. haha. and i;m kinda loving it. lol. be-cause, apparently he is soo good looking. like really very good looking. like those u see at the bollywood movies. tall, dark and handsome. haha. seriously! i'm not kidding when i say the word Handsome. and he sticks to my TA all day, because he have to la. learning purposes. and that means, he is like 70% with me too. because me and my TA, tag team what. do things together. and sooo, we are like all getting along well. *blushes* hahah. gatal nak mampos eh. god forgives me. anw he will be here until the 7th. idk whether he will the replacement TA for my current TA. but well, i have no high hopes whatsoever. but right now, all is well :) alhamdulillah! Thursday is teacher's dayyy. friday is holiday. school holiday. i miss the small little one so much!. shall see u soon ok mokmok? ;)))

Hmm. I have this feeling.. And it is not a good one.....

All work and no play is not my defination of 'Work' in First Toa Payoh. hehe me and my crazy, annoying TA. haha --- Ok so, i design-ed badges for the math department, and well, it turns out so nice. i feel soo happy to see my design come to life. credits of course to the people who uploaded graphics in the internet, (copyright eh).....shhhhh. here are the badges! wheeeeee. cute or CUTE?hee and the name card i made for one of my colleague. :) and she printed like a lot!! omg. haha, and the name card is all over China! lol, apparently she went to China for a meeting or smtg like that, and my cardddddd is spread-ed there! wahh i feel famous pls. haha. merepek eh. (ps. nice tak my photo edit? feeling2 tumblr ah.) --- also, i took some pics using DSLR. like i loveeeeeeeee dslr quality pictures la pls. it's awesome when it's time to edit. in this pic, i tried to bring out the colors. love the vibranc...

i love my hamsters so much. even if it means not sleeping till midnight just so the hamsters can come out and play. i have 6 hamsters and they are adult syrian hamsters. breaks my heart when i see them fighting. i can't help it. :( i have to house them together. like 3 in a tank or so. im like so guilty. if i dont separate them, sooner or later, they will kill each other. :( haiz. my brother is so dumb. i mean seriously. if  u plan to breed them, then please think hard what might happen in the future. i cant have 6 tanks in my room.... i cant bear to put the hamsters other places too.. they are my darlings. dear hamsters, i promise, if i must have 6 tanks, so be it. i love u all loads.............

I really envy those people working outdoors. Under the block Cleaners included. U work with the sounds of the birds chirping... The glaring sunlight on ur face.. The breeze of the wind... Rather than being cooped up like a JAILBIRD. in 4 walls. Even if there is the comfort of air con. I rather work at the zoo pls. Maybe I cn start considering jobs that are not boring and sleepable. Haha. Motivation to go work:50 percent. Will not increase anytime sooner bcose my BFF at work is leaving ;'( Lol kecoh.

All I need is this kind of stress free food To brighten me up. Been Feeling down nwadays. ...

:( My TA S Pass was rejected twice High chances he has to go off during september. Haiz. So sad. My partner in crime. We do almost everything together. Helping each other in all kind of matters. He is just a jack of all trades. He cn do like almost anything.. Im so very sad. Gonna miss his presence. The laughters. The stupid jokes. The childishness that only both of us share. Just like my big brother. Annoying. Bt caring at the same time. Gonna miss the good memories. I cn rmber the first introduction still. Movie screening in the lab during the holidays. Singing like frogs when no one is there. Breakfast during the holidays. Watching sch events in the hall together. And much more..... He is the only one I trust in sch. The one i talk to abt my workload. A good friend. One in a million.. So sad. :( People come and go. Hopefully a miracle happens.. And he can stay.

\ YAY! Finally my own gaza flag. haha. ok anw, i've not been blogging much. blame it on my workload. CHEY! step mana punya rajin eh. anw, nothing interesting to blog about. Ramadan has ended like a week ago. and the last 5 nights, my period just have to come. haizzzzzzzzz. so sad pls. anw its ok. Alhamdulillah it is a great Ramadhan. insya allah hopefully next year, i will embrace Ramadhan with hijab already. hais. im tired of procrastinating. stupid me. okay.and sooooooo Raya was fine! i malas nk upload pictures. so no pictures for u ollz. haha. updates in sch , now p6 are having their listening prelims. so fast eh. yesterday me and my annoying TA went to 13 class to set up the radios. TIRING OR WHAT SIA. Actually the one doing all the manual work is my TA la, i only supervise. supervise also tiring ok! walk up and down. hisy. oklah nothing much to update. hehe. will update again sooooooooooon! :) ... my ...

Dear people of Gaza, Children, men, women, old peoples... U are all the real heroes in Islam. U do not run..but u stay to be protect Gaza from being invaded by the assholes , which I obviously meant the Israels.. 1650 of you are lost your lives. But we Muslims know that all of u are never dead. U are all alive, in the hands of Allah swt. All of u should be proud . The chosen ones to die as shahids. :) U go straight to heavens of Allah :) To the people of Gaza who are still alive and fighting for your lives, running in fear and whatnot. Do not fear. Because Allah sees .. Allah hear and Allah knows. Ur time will come. Patience my dear brothers And sisters. Millions of us are praying for u. Not only Muslims..but everyone with HUMANITY are with u. I wish I can go to Gaza to help. But I'm not any help either. Not a doc not a nurse. Haiz. Wish i could help. :( Al-Qassam (army of Gaza), Ure all doing just great. Do not fear with all sorts of high end weapons what...

Depressing. Lost all my mood to celebrate raya and all. especially when i have the image of children and people dying in Palestine. When i go hunting for clothes, I think of them. Here I am buying such grand clothes when the people in Gaza are being bombed everywhere. When i break fast, I feel ashamed looking at the amount of food at the table. And then i think of the people in Gaza. Have they eaten? What do they have for their break fast? and yet, everyday we are throwing away food. When I look at how strong they are despite all the sufferings they go through. I feel ashamed. Singapore is so peaceful and yet we do not pray like they do. Even with the Israels Soldiers behind them with their weapons and all, they did not even skip their prayers. Imagine it was us, i think many of us would have run away or go into hidings right? Shame on us. Taking everything for granted. Not grateful for what we have. May god forgives us. And Palestine Peoples are amongst the highest ...