Sakit kepala ku mcm nk meletup. Im burning high. and yet I still cant sleep. omg I feel like crying. :((
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Blogging live from singapore zooo!! Haha. omg such fun! at first je smngt nk ge sini sana. now my legs mcm nak patah siooooo. adoii. Ntg different abt the zoo, my friends are all there, safe and sound.haha. windu sey ngn korg! Hehe. yeahyeah.so if i have pics frm my bro's iphone perhaps I can upload lah kan. Sheeshhh. penat lah sggttt.hee. but I enjoyed my day! Kayokayyyy! Im off from now. byeee
Im running a fever.gosh. Uncool. Had a sleepless night because my mind is just running non stop,thinking and worrying. till nw, i barely had 2 hours sleep. god, if i have to nurse a fever, pls let me have some sleep plsss. and furthermore got a meeting later on. Whatabore. and my bro had plans for us, to go to the zoo since he has free tics. Just so out of nwhere ge zoo.haha.gile tol. Tgklah camne la eh. k bye people...
Hikmah Berwudhuk Dengan Niat 1. Ketika berkumur, berniatlah kamu dengan, " Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa mulut dan lidahku ini ". Penjelasan nombor 1 : Kita hari-hari bercakap benda-benda yang tak berfaedah. 2. Ketika membasuh muka, berniatlah kamu dengan, "Ya Allah, putihkanlah muka ku di akhirat kelak, Janganlah Kau hitamkan muka ku ini". Penjelasan nombor 2 : Ahli syurga mukanya putih berseri-seri. 3. Ketika membasuh tangan kanan, berniatlah kamu dengan, "Ya Allah, berikanlah hisab-hisab ku di tangan kanan ku ini". Penjelasan nombor 3 : Ahli syurga diberikan hisab-hisabnya di tangan kanan . 4. Ketika membasuh tangan kiri, berniatlah kamu dengan, "Ya Allah, janganlah Kau berikan hisab-hisab ku di tangan kiri ku ini". Penjelasan nombor 4 : Ahli neraka diberikan hisab-hisabnya di tangan kiri . 5. Ketika membasuh kepala, berniatlah kamu dengan, "Ya Allah, lindunganlah daku dari terik matahari di padang Masyar dengan Arasy Mu...
SELAWAT. DIRIWAYATKAN DARIPADA RASULULLAH SAW YG BERMAKSUD ; ; Sesungguhnya bagi mereka yang paling utama pada hari kiamat bagiku adalah org yg paling byk selawat untukku. ; Sesiapa yg membaca satu selawat kpdku, nescaaya Allah akan berselawat padanya sebanyk sepuluh kali, dihapuskan daripadanya sepuluh kesalahan dah diangkat padanya sepuluh darjat. ; Sesiapa membaca selawat untukku pada hari jumaat 200 selawat, diampuni allah segala dosanya selama 200 tahun. ; Sesiapa membaca selawat 10 kali pada pagi hari, 10 kali pada waktu ptg, maka ia akan memperolehi syafaatku pada hari kiamat. ; Di mana sahaja kamu berada, berselawatlah kpdku, nescaya selawat itu smpai kepadaku. :)))
Waktu yg baik untuk berdoa : Pada malam qadar. (sepuluh malam terakhir dlm bulan ramadan) pada hari arafah (9 zulhijjah ketika jemaah haji wukuf di arafah) Pada bulan ramadan pada malam jumaat pada hari jumaat waktu berjumaat, lebih2 lagi ketika imam duduk di mimbar sampai imam mengucapkan salam. Pada tengah malam Seperdua malam yg kedua (selepas jam 12) Sepertiga malam yg pertama (jam 6-10 mlm) Sepertiga malam yg terakhir ()epas jam 2 pagi) Pada waktu sahur (sblom fajar) Sesudah berwuduk. Ketika orang azan untuk bersolat Antara azan dan iqamat Ketika org mengucapkan iqamat. ketika berbaris menuju medan perang sabil. dlm pertempuran di medan perang. pada akhir tiap2 solat fardhu. pada waktu sdg sujud. ketika membaca al-quran. setelah tamat membaca al-quran ketika minum air zamzam pada waktu ayam jantan berkokok. pada saat berkumpulnya kaum muslimin kerana agama. pada waktu berkumpul untuk berzikir. ketika menutupkan mata org yg telah mati. pada waktu hujan. #take note. ----------------...
Pertunangan-- islam mengharamkan bakal pasangan suami isteri untuk berdua-duaan ke sana dan ke mari kerana pertunangan bukanlah tiket untuk melakukan perkara2 yg dihalalkan dlm perhubungan suami isteri.. hadis rasulullah saw, ; tidak dibolehkan lelaki berdua-duaaan dgn perempuan melainkan ade bersama-sama mahramnya. #pengajaran.
SHOUTOUT
special shoutout to tahrika deavi! ARE U STILL HERE ON EARTH?? ARE U LIKE STILL ALIVE?! YALAH, GOT NEW FRIENDS, GOT JOB, YOUR OLD FRIENDS PUT ASIDE LAH. haish. kecewa! ____________________________________________________________________
gosh; 2011 is coming to an end. and hilariously enough, ive achieved nothing much again. HAHA. okay 2012, im not going to set any high hopes or dreams. haha. tk guna. because i know im not gonna stick to my plans. kata zafirah kan.haha. so, lets just follow the flow. the only thing i hope for 2012 is, i wish for less natural disasters please! im kinda scared looking at how much natural disasters that already happened in 2011. oh myy, the earth is really ageing. anytime, anything can happen. lets all start repenting okay! :) insyaallah. amin.
tranquility
The feeling of peace whenever i look at your face. i wonder why. Hopefully one day i get to meet you. :)
boy
boy, u have the ability to capture my heart. you handsome boy. ilyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! my one and only. afiq!hee
i dont know whether i should be worried or not. deep down, the worrying feeling still exist. i dont know. what should i do?? please god lead me the way. for i am lost right now. haish. anw, my neck hurts when i turn my head. goshhhhhhh.mcm salah urat ah. and my whole body is aching. i feel bad for not fulfilling my father's request to massage his body. but my body already felt like its been shredded. :( i seem to fulfill the needs of others, but mine is ignored. and, i kinda fear of cycling with too much things in my bicycle basket. stupid me. put so many things and i cant even cycle properly. god, i nearly fall with the bicycle just now. sumpah scary. haha. ni namanyer bodoh. klah bye. :) once today is over, never look back and regret of the things that happened today. because tomorrow might serve a better meaning to live and move on, May tomorrow be a better day for all of us. :) OKAY.seriously,idk what i typed.haha. i hope it make sense.
aku masih di sini sampai bila. entah mengapa. i promise, to be here and there, everywhere for you. no matter what the situation holds. you can fall back on me. ill be your support. and your biggest supporter. aku masih di sini. takkan bergoyang. i heart you. _____________________________________________________________
FIRST FALL
fell from the bicycle yesterday. fuh delicious lah! haha. i fell flat on the grass. gah, idk why, everytime i fall, it seems like evrything is going slow mo. haha. even when im alrdy on the ground, im still u knw confused. yah, hamizah was there. we both fell frm the bicycle together.haha. that is when she decided to cycle us home. gah, i knew it!haha. nvm, though it's embarrasing, we had a good laugh after that. laugh at each other stupidity. haha. and sorryyyyyyyyy girl, for making u walk from my workplace to your workplace ysterday!ahah. semua ini mmg sudah ditakdirkn :) haha. alright byeee!
helooooooooo. its thursday and there's no more training! weeeeeee.haha. gosh, 2 days of waking up early is making me feel physically drained out!haha. kecoh eh. anw i had microsoft word 2010 training. my, i thought it was going to be easy. BUT WELL WELL, it was not what i expected. u guys dont know how MUCH TOOLS THAT U GUYS NEVER USED BEFORE AT M.W. yah, anw microsoft word is cool man!haha. maybe i cn pass on my knowledge to u guys.bt i doubt ure interested. ahha. anw i skipped monday. and tuesday, i went for the training to knw that there's a test on wed. my god! so many things to learn. so little time! anw did the test and i passed. sighs, 20 question.50 mins. so little time! i passed but im not satisfied ahhh. why call it a test if the trainer can help us with the test. tipu namanya. and mine some more, most of the question, he helped me. not that i dont know. but he was rushing me. i cant even read the question properly. HAIYOOOOOOO. ni smua pasal computer bodoh yg hang. i...
MONDAY. RAINY DAY. it dosent matter. i love it. all this nikmat tuhan we have to bersyukur. :) jgn mcm org kafir. sikit panas nk complain. dah kasi hujan pon nk complain. bodoh peh manusia. tk pernah nk bersyukur. anw. mari kita semua sebutkan. ALHAMDULILLAH! THANK U GOD for the rain, for the sunshine, for everything uve given us. :) anws, today is monday. and it totally slipped off my mind that i have training. haha.no wonder lah i was wondering, hw come im so free. which is nothing new.haha. but well, smtimes, i just like to feel busy u see. haha.kk merepek lak. and i went all the way to 8 george street myself! weiiiiiiiiii. applauds to me. I HAVE NO IDEA ITS AT CLARK QUAY. i thought mcm place ive never gone before. padehal2. nvm.i am PROUD because i reached my destination without the help of internet. haha. CAN YOU?? I BET YOU CANT. all of u depend of electronic gadgets too much la. tak mcm aku.instinct mesti mau ade. haha kk picked hamizah up. 2 days w.o her existence. ahh the mome...
be good to your parents.
#PIECE OF ADVICE. No matter how successful you are, clever you are, rich you are, dont ever forget where you came from. dont ever forget how your mom fight for her life to bring u to the world. dont ever forget how your parents showered you with love. dont ever forget the tired faces of your parents when they come home frm work just to make sure they fed you enough. dont ever forget how YOUR PARENTS PUT YOU FIRST IN EVERYTHING despite of all odds. You're just a nobody without them. So, STOP being arrogant just because you're rich or successful etc. be GRATEFUL. give back to your parents, because when they're gone, it's pointless to cry. take care of them like how they took care of you. whatever your actions are will reflect back to yourself. trust me, if treat your parents badly, you get the same treatment or worst from your children later on in life. their sacrifice cant be compared to anyone else's sacrifices. #reminder ___________________________________________...
#SMILE. No matter how sad you are, miserable you are, depressed you are, angry you are, smile. :) because no one can make you feel better except yourself. so, just smile. trust me, it's the best ever remedy you can ever get. SMILE. it dosent hurt one bit. :)) smile. its priceless. ____________________________________________________________________
hear me out.
i am nothing to myself. i am no one to anybody. i lost all hope to be a somebody. hopes are lost. confidence are crushed. torn into a hundred pieces. waiting for someone to pick those pieces up for me, give me a slap of reality, and the confidence to rise and move on. as good as i am giving others advice, when it comes to myself, im just stumped for words. #life.
apabila musik diagung-agungkan, dan ibadah dilupakan. apabila harta menjadi keutamaan, tidak peduli sumbernya halal ataupun haram. apabila wanita sudah dianggap seperti barang dagangan. boleh dijual beli. apabila maksiat berleluasa, dan dilihat seperti satu trend. apabila manusia membunuh antara manusia. yg membunuh tidak tau kenapa dia membunuh, dan yg dibunuh tidak tahu kenapa dia dibunuh. apabila banyak berlakunya pembunuhan diri. apabila masa berlalu dengan cepatnya. apabila umat islam bermusuhan antara satu sama lain. apabila manusia membaca al-quran sebagai sumber pendapatan dan untuk keuntungan wang. kenapa manusia tidak perasan.akan balak dan bencana yg sudah berlaku? nikmat allah ditarik satu persatu. hujan, kemarau , gempa bumi, asap,banjir...etc. binatang hampir pupus. tanaman2 rosak. ikan di laut kebanyakannya mati. sumber air berkurangan. penyakit. macam2 penyakit yg timbul skrg. ya allah, berikanlah kami kesedaran supaya kami tidak terpengaruh dgn nikmat di dunia dan dibe...
weak. gosh. i think whatever i ate, did not register in my body. makan, sakit perut, berak/muntah. skrg nk mkn pon tkde selera. lemah semacam. adoi. and ystday i was cycling back to bedok inter when the rain decided to fall. that heavily. drenched head to toe. demam lak skrg. klah, off i go nw. gdbye. _____________________________________________________________ you're just a part of my dream. ill leave it as it is. because i dont think its possible. xoxo
Muslimahku.. Apabila teruna memandang dirimu, tunduklah demi mengelak panahan syaitan. Apabila teruna mendekati selangkah, berundurlah beribu langkah. Apabila teruna memujuk rayu, Anggaplah itu kalimah bisikan syaitan. Apabila teruna menutur harapan indah, Yakinlah dgn janji ALLAH yg lebih bahagia di sana kerana kau mengerti dan menyedari ... akan erti maruah peribadi yang diselaputi iman yang hakiki... yang tak mudah dicemari, tak mudah diberi, dan tak mudah dikotori. janganlah seperti segelintir perempuan, apabila teruna memerhatikan dikau, kau membalas renungan matanya. Apabila teruna mendekati selangkah, kau datang berpuluh langkah. Apabila teruna memujuk rayu, kau lemah dalam pangkuannya. Apabila teruna memberi harapan, kau hanyut dalam angan langkah. Minta dijauhkan. Takutlah azab ALLAH yang menanti di muka pengadilan.
Perut bumi megeluarkan khazanah2 yg direbuti ramai.
TANDA2 AKHIR ZAMAN. SUNGAI FURAT DI IRAQ. Peperangan di Kawasan Sungai Furat (Iraq) kerana Merebut Kekayaan Ertinya: Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a., bahawasanya Rasulullah saw. bersabda; 'Tidak terjadi hari qiamat sehingga Sungai Furat (Sungai Euphrates iaitu sebuah sungai yang ada di lraq) menjadi surut airnya sehingga ternampak sebuah gunung daripada emas. Ramai orang yang berperang untuk merebutkannya. Maka terbunuh sembilan puluh sembilan daripada seratus orang yang berperang. Dan masing-masing yang terlibat berkata, "mudah-mudahan akulah orang yang terselamat itu". Di dalam riwayat lain ada disebutkan; "Sudah dekat suata masa di mana sungai Furat akan menjadi surut airnya lalu ternampak perbendaharaan daripada emas, maka barangsiapa yang hadhir di situ janganlah ia mengambil sesuatu pun daripada harta itu". (H.R.Bukhari Muslim)
hurricanes in america
rmber katrina? that's the name of a hurricane anw. yes, see what katrina had done to america? upon reading, i got to knw that perhaps the reason why god send down katrina to destroy america is because of... how arrogant GEORGE W.BUSH was, saying that america is the most powerful country with the most advanced technlogy and such. and he thinks that, with all that, nothing can deter him/the country. well, well, when hurricane katrina came and destroy part of america, wasnt he stunned. tsk. come on lah. your powers DO NOT EVEN MATCH THE POWERS OF GOD. be ashamed of yourself. and also, because of the distress he created in iraq and such. killing all those innocent ones. i guess america deserves it. god is almighty. :) ____________________________________________________________________
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Of what value am i to you? if i dont deserve your attention, so why do you need me there at the first place? #ponder.
masjid baitul ar-rahman.
tsunami acheh 2004. okay, it happened long time ago. and i did some research based on some interesting facts that ive read. Look, despite the massive tsunami. this mosque was not touched at all by the tsunami. i read that, when the tsunami was heading to the mosque, the water separated into 2. just so that the water would not hit the mosque. dgn kuasa allah, kalau allah perintahkan tsunami itu supaya masjid itu terpelihara, maka ia akan terpelihara. subhanallah. and from what ive read too. the tsunami came one day after krismas in acheh. turn out that during krismas, those people who called themselves muslim went out to celebrate krismas with the christians. and that's when god send down tsunami. hmmmmmmmmmmm..
#akhir zaman
i just read a book. and i was really shaken. the book talks about the signs of the end of the world. and u dont even have to guess. 80% of the signs are already seen on earth. gosh. im really scared. all of you should. pabila hendak dtgnya kiamat. pembunuhan. mencuri riba zina maksiat tiada perasaan malu lagi. tiada belas kasihan. mati secara mengejut. and all those natural disasters. and when. when everywhere u go dosent even feels safe. when women dress like men, and men dress like women. when masa berlalu dgn pantasnya. and so much much much more. i will post more soon. this time with more information. :) masyaallah. semoga kita semua berada dlm golongan org yg beriman selalu. amin! ________________________________________________________________
3D!!
HEHE. firstly babyg got a job!! HAHAHHAHAHHAHA. Idk what exactly is funny, but frm the moment, she got the job, the thought of her having to wake up at 5am. handling complain calls frm customers for like 8 hrs, seems hilarious to me. haha. haha.jk. all the best for your job okayy! :) i knw u can handle these customers. BECAUSE URE DYNAMICCCCCCC!haha no worries. 1 year only. after that we go studyyy lah kay! anws, today, i watched ARTHUR CHRISTMAS IN 3D! omg, i never watched any movies in 3D before. and today is my first one! anw 3d kinda SUCKKKKKKKKKK. okok only la. my eyes felt painful lah. then mcm mabok only see the effect. but the movie was awesome. the story was humourous, sad and u knw,not boring. im beginning to love animation movies:D i swear they did a great job doing the animation. okay enough talk here. my stomach still feels painful. IDK if its the cramp, or the shit in my big intestine. god knows. I WANT TO BERAK. BUT THE TOILET LIGHTS WENT OFF, AND WONT LIGHT UP TILL NOW ...
okay. listen here. i dont freaking care what you have to say regarding how i dress, or how i look like. Before u start talking abt someone, go reflect on yourself. you aint perfect yourself. menyibok berbual pasal hal orang. dah tkde keje, mengumpat je lah keje. tsk. eh budak kepit. LU BOLEH BLAH LAH. u aint a man. ure one handsome bitch ..
my god this is horrible. if i knew it'd be this horrible. i'd just cancel whatever plans i had today, regardless hw impt it is and stay at home. i end up sitting at the busstop staring at the floor, clutching my stomach for like 30 mins. i wanna go flag a taxi, but standing up seems so difficult i swear. when at last, ive decided to try and walk, i feel like puking. siak, and it came out when i was inside the taxi. thank god the uncle was malay. naseb baik jgk aku tk berserakkn taxi dia. hehe. omg. i totally hate vomiting. and some came out frm my nose. rasa dia mcm sial. perit nak mampos i tell u. OMG.HORRIBLE MOMENT OF MY LIFE. wasnt i glad when i finally hit my bed. :) alhamduillah.nasib baik ade strenght nak flag taxi kalau tk, smpai entah kul brape aku nk ddk sana. AND IM KINDA HUNGRY NW. wanted to go dwn and buy food. bt adoi the pain eh. mcm mana ni nk beranak. i think im gg to faint halfway. anakku, pandai2 lah ko keluar k nnti. haha. gah okay. i hope this severe pain r...
KITA dihidupkan di dunia ini dgn satu tujuan. iaitu menyembah tuhanmu. ALLAH SWT. bukan untuk enjoy2, nak party2, nak mabok2, nak joget2, cium2, berzina semua eh. hidup cuma sekali. ENJOY BECAUSE WE ONLY LIVE ONCE. ini kepala otak korg. tengoklah nanti, kalau dah mati. korg jogetlah kat dlm kubur masing2 eh. bodoh. selagi masih bernyawa kita harus bersyukur yg tuhan berikan kita peluang untuk bertaubat.untuk berubah. kat dunia mmglah bnyk brothers, sisters yg kononnya will be there thick and thin. bila dah mati. apa brothers and sisters korg nk temankn ko dlm kubur? pls eh. jgn harap. sedarlah wahai manusia. nikmat kat dunia hanya sementara. kita smua tk tau sampai bila kita boleh hidup. dosent mean korg muda, hidup korg panjang. NO. masa. make full use of your time. carilah bekalan amalan yg boleh tolong korg nnti. kehidupan selepas kematian adalah kekal. dunia hanya SEMENTARA . IMAN. KUATKN IMAN. INGT HALAL, HARAM. SEMBAHYG JGN LUPA. SOLAT ADALAH TIANG AGAMAMU. rumah yg tkde tiang, s...
mcm syaitans. Dont call yourselve a muslim if ure out there acting like syaitans. wearing skimpy outfit. showing off your boobs and body to hundreds of people. party-ing at zook-out. terkinja-kinja mcm monyet. bodoh. while u guys are doing this, setan and jin kat luar tgh ketawakn kebodohan korg. minum arak. mcm dah tkde air lain. air busuk nak mampus tu jgk nk minum. air kencing setan. bila mabuk.org molest.kene rape. mmg dah sajak ngn muka korg. tk guna nak menangis lepas tu k. ---------- berubahlah sebelum terlambat. #akhir zaman
prp
sheesh. i spend like more than half and hour getting lost at pasir ris park. i was alone and it was so dark, i cant even figure out where i was going. the thick dense forest. all different kind of sounds i hear. NO ONE AT ALL. call org pon satu2 tk angkt. thank god I did find my way. very long walk. tiring it was. gah.what a bad experience..
THIS WEEK IS MAKING ME SO SO TIRED. SO MANY INTERVIEWS, U PEOPLE DONT EVEN KNW WHAT IVE GONE THROUGH. HAISH. SERIOUSLY, I DONT THINK IM FIT TO TEACH. IF THIS KIND OF CAREER IS NOT FOR ME, I PRAY TO GOD TO SHOW ME MY PATHWAY TO SUCCESS. I DONT CARE. IM JUST TIRED OF ALL THIS. AND IM PISSED SINCE WED NIGHT. U KNOW I KNOW. ANNOYING SIAK. I SWEAR THE LAST FEW DAYS AND WEEK WAS SO PEACEFUL. UNTIL YSTRDAY AND OFFICIALLY STARTING FOR TODAY. HABIS AH. SHORT ATTENTION SPAN DIA DTG BALIK. DAH LA. IM TOO TIRED TO THINK ABT ALL THIS. I WANT TO RELAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX. AND DO SMTG THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. I MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY, BT FEW MAKES ME HAPPY. THATS LIFE.
GAHH. I LOVE EVERY MIN OF YOU IN MY LIFE. U MAKE LIFE SO MUCH EASIER WITH UR PRESENCE. I LOVE U BIKEYYY :) hehe. gosh. my legs are all cramped out with the cycling. anw, cycling here and there taught me something. any minute i lose my focus on the road, the risk of me getting hit by vehicles is kinda high. scary sey. hope allah protects me from accidents or other bad things that might happen to me while cycling on the road. amin.
OKAY ANOTHER UPDATE AGAIN.hee. OKAY SOOOOOO, IM 20!!haha. and i think ive become worse. hehe. ive become more immature, looking at the way i acted with my bffs just nw. haha. AKU DAH MCM CHILD GONE WRONG. haha.anw astargfirullah. i think changes are supposed to be slow moving. understandinglah sikit k bffs ku ini.haha. ANW, I HAVE AN AWESOME TIME WITH DEAVI AND HAMIZAH, Firstly, I appreciate u guys taking the day off to spend with me. even though u had to sacrifise ur life taking mc, and sacrifise your day with another person for me and such. gosh. i am so touched and im in the verge of crying now,i tell u.haha. :)) FOR THAT I GIVE U 5 STARS OF HAPPINESS. This is how i rate my happiness. hehe. :)) THANK YOU. secondly. THE SHUFFLING. OMG!!!!HAHA.U GUYS CAN SURE DANCE!AHAHHAHA. AWESOME EFFORT PUT IN.haha. no matter how weird looking ur dance was, I LOVE EVERY BIT OF THE SHUFFLING (IF U STILL CALL THAT SHUFFLING.HAHAA) GREAT INTRODUCTION. (THE CHICKEN WING MOVE) GREAT CHEREOGRAPHY ( HANDS...
went cycling. was tiring but it was fun. i managed to cycle all the way to the end. and i discovered places that really makes u go awed. by the scenery of course. and the wind. siok ah. perfect timing. the moment i returned the bike, it started raining. haha. alhamdulillah! then prayed at ansar. was walking at the budget store, look who i saw!. deavi!haha. caught in a budget store. lol. she looked terrible. like never bathe in a week. haha. then i went off somewhere. met hamizah for karaoke. impromptu plan. 3 hours of terpekik terlolong. and the best of the best was singing and dancing to party rock anthem song. hha.kekek. then home. :)) lovely day. :)
so proud of you. being pregnant and facing it alone is sure hard for you. but you made it through. no matter how big your sins are, i pray that god will give u a chance to repent and become a good mother to your son. :) glad that many of your friends stayed through thick and thin with you. up till now, ure still the connie i know. strong-willed. congratulations on your baby boy!:)) looking at your pictures remind me of the past. gosh i miss you! all those memories. pri 6. sat together in class. damn, we just couldnt be separated in class. we talked and talked non-stop in class. and then getting scolded in front of everyone. but we still smile and laugh after that. :) then one day, teacher separated us for good. and you texted the teacher, we apologise for our deeds in class. promising that we shall not disrupt the class. and the teacher agreed. the nxt day, we sat back tgether evryone in the class looked shocked. bt it was btwn me, you and the teacher. hehe :)) everyday before gg to sc...
walking at tampines bus terminal. saw a wheelchair bound makcik. her eyes. they looked sad. i went to her. saw her selling mugs for fund raising or charity purposes. i bought a mug from her. she looked really suprised. the smile on her face. priceless. "makcik doakn anak panjang umur, murahkan rezeki, jadi anak yg solehah dan tuhan ampunkan dosa anak..amin" me : terima-kasih cik. almost in tears. (: semoga allah menjaga dan melindungi makcik tu selalu. amin.
today is 30 zulhijjah. and in islamic calender, tomorrow marks 1 muharram which also means a brand new years for us muslims. :)) yeah, honestly for the past few years, i didnt take note of islamic calender that much. so ignorant. but nw, i guess things change. insyaallah, for this incoming new islamic year, i aim to be a better person. a better muslim. a better daughter. a better friend just a better somebody. hope to achieve somehtg for myself too. :) insyaallah. selamat menyambut awal muharram everybody. :))
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butterfly fly away. take those dreams and make them come true. ♥ ______________________________________________________ fri. weirdly i dont feel tired at all. yeah.i think because im excited to spend my last days at that sch. gosh. thanks for all the experience siglap! although i didnt contribute that much, i sure learnt a lot of things. (eh?hhaha) the short period of time there was kinda priceless. but the person i should thank the most is faidhi of course. awesome guy. ure such a gentleman. i sure had a great time working with you. gonna miss everything. :( nvm. gonna see u for trainings during dec anw. and dont even mention the boring gathering. haha. okayyy i miss the morning drill. take the keys. open the labs. youtube. lunch youtube.blogging. home. close the labs. return the leys. gnna miss doing this. miss my macbook and my awesome desk pls!!!! okay.enough. loook ahead. maybe there's a better future out there for me. hehe. excited but nervous. all the best for me. hamizah pi...
scary
just woke up from a short nap which sort of felt like a long one. gosh. thank god i woke up. i must be dead sleeping. the moment my mother called my name to wake up, there was this short period of memory loss i swear. i dont even rmber where i was, the time, the place, the people arnd me. it was seriously scary. blur giler sia. the feeling of amnesia. my oh my. one day should i have memory loss, this blog will be a lot of help. (: #aint living in a dream. this is reality. wake up.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGG. FOR THE WHOLE OF DECEMBER, I DONT HAVE TO COME TO SCH!! hahahahhahahaha. this is happy news sia! takot kn aku sia si HOD DORIS call aku. but i have to go to the main office instead. -_- please,i hope they dont request us to go over there everyday. IM A HAPPY KID IF I CAN HAVE OFF DAYS. WEEE.
if this is life, i suppose..
I should stop acting like a brat. I should stop complaining over little things in life. I should not really take every single thing to heart. I should not think negatively over every single thing. I should not look at other people’s mistakes but look at mine instead. I should not tell others what they should do and what they should not. Instead I shouldn’t expect too much. I should not think too much. I should stop all this nonsense. I should just be me. Ignorant and carefree. Yeah. From now onwards, I will accept whatever that comes in my way. Love me/Hate me. I’m done being disappointed over and over again. Xoxo :)
used. this is what i feel. its 2.50am nw. and im not asleep yet. because i was waiting for my food for like 2 hours. i wondered why it took so long. even if i walked, id prbably reachd sooner. gah. the thought of u sending me food in the middle of the night is just so sweet. the eagerness. and i thought the reason was me. it wasnt. i knew it. haish. why u people like to make me feel special then make me find out that there's probably a better reason out there. 3am nw. ive nt yet eaten.lost my apetite. gdnight.
i wish
you would just tell me how much im worth to you. all truths. no lies. if u think it makes me feel better. it dosent. i wish. you would just say the 3 special words every single day. i wish. i wish. ____________________________________________________________________
ok
i dont like my day divided. its either the whole day or no day. if you guys have other commitments or plans, go ahead. i dont mind nt having anythg. better than meeting me and leaving me to meet another person and meeting me back. what's so special about that. okay. point across.
cereal prawn and nasi gorengsss.
:D Another day with my bffs. we had a okok scrumptious meal. splurged like 30 bucks on everything! *jaws dropped* i swear i saw how distressed deavi's face was having to pay like 80% of the bill. haha. thank you!!! we appreciate it much babe! :)) hehe. dont worry, it's gnna be my turn sooonnnnnnnn.sighs. haha. anw as usual, i had a great time with you guys. i wish we can talk all day and night. but wells,we cant.haha.nvm. i looked forward for another bffs gathering with you 2! :) heee. anw im sorry for talking too much rubbish.hehe. u know me. i just cant stand silence. so, if my words kinda hurt any of you guys, i apologise k no offence whatsoever. :) PMS people just have to take a laugh sometime. haha okayyyyyyy. thanks for the awesome day babes! love u guys. :P
ngantok
its only tuesday. :/ so sleepy. i think i sleep walked to sch. i was on my own world i swear. and i was walking at a speed of a snail. #shagged much. muka penatku.
sleepy nyerrrrr. just went home frm erm a haircut. which i think is a waste of money. depending the fact that i cut 0.5% of my hair. haha. no no, its better than making my hair short. i will be crying all day and night. cooping myself like a chicken in a barn. and be depressed like a love sick child. haha.ok enough said. anw the point is, me and hamizah went for a haircut. k more to hamizah. she cut her hair mcm OMG LENGHT LAH! haha. she looked un-hamizah-ish. chey! bbl bnyk padehal tk nmpak pon. haha.rumours has it that her butt lenght hair is cut short to below knee level! omg scream people! SCREAM.haha. mepeklah.haha. okayyyy.before that had our dinner at KFCCCCCCCCCC. then to masjid. and haircut. and home i am now. and OMG. LISTEN. everyone's bed is infested with bed bugs! HAHA! and they are so paranoid abt that.haha.lolol. satu2 takot sey nk tido. turn out they hid well at the curtains and u know holes in the walls. annoying much. #just saying. hahaha. and my mother, the hero ...
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my mother so cute! haha. well, she finally found out that she's blocked from my fb wall. hahah. no, i only blocked her from reading my posts, but not entirely the whole fb mah.haha. i blocked so many people anw.haha. then she was like.. she :"ohh smlm ge mrayap kat pizza hut......" me: OMG, mcm mane tau??? she :kau block aku dari fb kan! me : *laughs*. mcm mana tau??! she : eh tau lah.block aku eh. siap kau.nnti aku block kau. delete kau teros. me : hahahaha. lol. sorreh mother. gosh, its scary how she know my whereabout when ive alrdy blocked her, my big brother.and i didnt even add my small brother. haha. and i wonder. and i keep wondering. and now i know how. i bloody didnt log out frm my fb on my laptop. BODOH! tk guna aku block. haha hehe.
cycling in the rain :)
HEHE. today was erm a very wet dayyyyyyy. the day started off with a beautiful fine weather. with the sun so bright, and the winds are blowing, the skies are blue and the birds are chirping happily.haha. tak habis2 eh.hehe. okay so the plan was to go cycling and then gym. before that,we went to have our breaklunch at pizza hut! KECOH SIA. MAHAL2. nk pengsan can!!!!!! okay nevermind. it's not everyday that we eat lavishly.hehe. we had the cheesy pizza! omgawd. it was awesome lah. and also ate the chocolate muffin with the ice-cream. the must eat everytime we had our food at pizza hut. kenyang lah bedah oii! haha. our plan was like gain 5 kilos and step mana nyer rajin buat strenous exercise kat gym. haha! anw after that, we headed to ECP TO CYCLE. along the way, it rained. :(((((((((( but i dunch care ah. rain or shine, i mesti nk cycle. I MESTI NAK CYCLE. PAHAM! haha.sooooo, rented a double seated bike. OMG. guess what. we didnt actually bang into anything. or like kill anyone! hah...
my drug, my addiction, my greatest remedy :))
thurs and fri. was spent with my fav girls. gosh. i love you two so much. no words can describe how awesome both of you are. no words can describe how awesome my life is, with the presence of you guys. i mean there's never a day gone w/o us smiling and laughing like fools. you guys are the real meaning of friends. :)) i knw it must be boring hearing me say the same old thing all the time. but how else cn i show my gratitude towards u guys! u knw i dont show it right. heh.so the next best thg ill do is to write down how much u guys meant to me. hamizah, bitter, sweet, sour, spice. friendship was never as tasteful as before. haha.okay what a stupid thing to say. 1 thing for sure, i went through so much with you. and since it's like almost everyday time spent with you. its obvious that you're the closest person in my heart. and i loveee you so much. not even my siblings are that close to me. and i dont even talk much to my parents. to you, i can talk almost anything! i am tot...
i dont need people like u.
wow, to think it gets any much better having people to rub it in. okay. it's just not funny. cousins or not, i dont tolerate nonsense frm anyone who have ntg better to do, bt to hurt me more. go fuck off. i hate you people. i hope i can pull this through myself. :(
maybe i overhot my words. just cant control my emotions. im just so sad. the day i fear coming will finally come. i cant control this feeling. it's so overwhelming. i feel so broken right now. please just go ahead. go for your happiness. dont mind me. im just your friend. nothing more. nothing less. i just wanna sleep.
MCM TAIK
mcm taik!haha. yesterday photo taking was done horrendously by a teacher! haha. so many pictures were rejected because it's either blurred, too dark, or cropped out of place. such a waste. why lah they didnt ask me or faidhi to take picture. at least not many pictures will be wasted right! i have to re-edit so many pictures. hisy.nyusahkn aku je. okay i will upload some for you to see! hee.
ok bear with me
haha. sorry too much of my face. nah, i just wanna upload so i can deleteeee it frm this com. :)
shagged
concorde! Concorde hotel was a nice experience. the food was awesome. the service was awesome. and yesterday's event was a blast. i thought it was gg to be boring. the activity planned was best lah. oklahh at least it didnt make me sleep. depending the fact that i was yawning away the min i reach there. heh. penat sia. omg turn out many teachers did dress up. one of them actually dressed up as a smurf. oomg cute gilerrrr. she painted her face blue somemore. she must be brave walking along the street like that.haha. wasted sey. we didnt bring along our cameras. kalau tk ley snap2. hehe. and i didnt know teachers can be hilarious too!haha omg. cute jgk tua2 ni smua. when they get together, smua mcm tk sedar diri.haha OKAY RIGHT NOW. I AM LITERALLY SHAGGED. my muscles are aching. arghhhhhhhhh. nk sleeep jap. i came so early today. ergh. oh yah. i totally didnt display any eating etiquette ystday. haha.hotel lagi. and one of them actually taught me how to hold the fork/spoon in a prope...
HELP!
I AM SO BOREDDDDDDDDD............................... I WANNA GO HOME :((((((((((((( someone entertain me pls.hehe
wednesday
am shagged on wednesday morning! DANG. yesterday i went home late. cheywahhh mcm finally ot eh!haha.lol. me and faidhi went to the wet field to take photos of the girls playing soccer. myy, it's a lame match lah. primary sch girls soccer. so boring. there's absolutely no thrill watching a bunch of screaming girls like literally screaming at each other. haha. they were like screaming 'KICK HARDER!" like ???haha.kicking hard at the ball but without applying any skills is just a waste of time man! haha. there's a guest coach there. a Caucasian.omg hot or what. i think he's the reason i went all the way inside the muddy field to take pictures. hahaha.i think i focused too much on him alrdy.haha. anw i wonder why he would waste time watching these girls play. sighs.haha. oh i think he's being PAID. OF COURSE LAH!haha anw the goalkeeper is really hilarious. how can a goalkeeper be frightened at the thought of the ball coming her way? haha. she was so nervous.and ...
Ohio mother charged with raping infant son
OLUMBUS, Ohio (AP) — An Ohio woman is accused of raping her 10-month-old son, videotaping it and sending it to her Michigan boyfriend. Ashley N. Jessup, 24, was indicted in Columbus on Thursday on two counts of rape, one count of child endangerment and one count of pandering sexually-oriented material involving a minor. Franklin County Prosecutor Ron O'Brien says the rape charge could land her life in prison. O'Brien tells The Columbus Dispatch (http://bit.ly/n2XPEK ) that Jessup emailed the videos to her boyfriend in Battle Creek, Mich., where his ex-girlfriend discovered them and contacted police. Jessup is being held in the Franklin County Correctional Center in lieu of $1 million bond. Court documents do not list an attorney for Jessup. The newspaper reported that it wasn't immediately clear who has custody of the child. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ my say. SICK. what is this? own mother doing this to o...
gosh. yesterday i had way too much laughter until i went home with a straight face. no smiles whatsoever.haha u know that happens when you over laughed. and your laughing gas is all used up. haha. this is all hamizah's fault. though she's not funny, i always have something to laugh at her or with her. haha. what im trying to say is, you just make my day every day! :)) and that makes me love you more and more and more every single day.hee i bet it goes for u too.haha. :) anw im dedicating this post to you hamizah. THANK YOU FOR BEING SO SWEET. despite being depressed (which i didn't know), you make the effort to call and entertain my needs to be sung to sleep. haha. even though your voice was croaky all the way, the fact that u tried to sing me to sleep is just so sweet. aww! thank you loads! u should do that often :)) syg kau! contented.you.mylife
wednesday. annual sch dinner and i have nothing to wear. i bet no one's gonna pay attention to the theme which is ridiculously u knw like dressing up like a character kinda theme. merepekish. like those teachers wanna make a fool of themselves and look like a spongebob or smthg.haha. and heck no, im not gonna dress up like a cartoon character. and gg home in a public bus looking like a fool. haha. goshhhhhhhhhh.idk man. cnfirm the women all wear dresses. which are like BORINGGGG. im jst 20! i wanna dress up like a rockstar mannnnnnnn. haha.kecoh. i alrdy got a leather jacket. hehe.mahal siol!haha. and to go with black jeans. black shoes. (tkde) evrthg black. funeral look.haha. oh man.maybe tmrw ill go shopping on my own.buy like black ear rings and etccc. someone refuse to pick me up whatttttt. haha. nevermind. :) okay gdnight all.
darn it
;guys we women understand that god makes you the leader of the house. :) to be able to lead us, to provide for us. i mean do what a man has to do. BUT it dosent give you the privedledge to be freaking lazy. do nothing productive but play games all day. NOT BEING A HELP IN ANY WAY IN THE HOUSE. like hello! if ure at home the whole day. WHY DONT U LIKE HELP OUT WITH THE HOUSEWORK. ALL U DO IS EAT, PLAY GAMES , SLEEP. and expect your clothes to be washed, folded and ready for you to wear the next day. eh fuck. listen here. if you happen to stay in the same house, ALL OF US INCLUDING ME ARE EQUALLY BURDENED WITH HOUSE CHORES. im dying in pain here. and i still sweep and mop the floor until it's so clean and nice, so that all your lazy butts can enjoy sitting on the clean floor. before i get even mad typing all the bad words, i better stop for now. i bet all your brothers are like that. should shoot them in the head. damn the pms is really getting to me. *peace* THERE ARE 7 DAYS IN A MO...
listen.
wearing such skimpy clothes dosent make u look beautiful/pretty. just creating the impression that you're nothing but one of those girls outside trying to attract attention and looking oh so ever ...ergh u knw what i mean. a good friend will never tell u that u look super sexy/hot/georgeous just because ure looking so nice wearing such revealing clothes. now a gd friend will tell u TO GET THE HELL OUT OF THOSE CLOTHES, COVER YOURSELF AND STOP LOOKING LIKE A PIMP. be different. cover up. be respectable in the eyes of society.
for once i was strucked.
the best feeling ever. eyes locked. no words spoken. and let the eyes speak for themselves. the best feeling ever. those hugs. no words spoken. just warmness. the best feeling ever. those kisses. no words spoken. just love. the best feeling ever. to be with you. XOXO _____________________________________________________________________
frida-da-day! Work was okay. as usual there was nothing much to do but to find my own source of entertainment.hee after work, hamizah was there early to pick me up! hehe. :)) after praying, we head off to ehub to watch another movie. yah tu lah kerja kita, asyik tengok wayang je. habislah duit aku.haha. anw watched tower heist. oklahh.it was funny and action-packed. some of the scenes looked too fake though! then we head off to ecp. i was invited to a CCA BBQ PIT. computer club nyer cca.kental. haha. there was JOE (teacher), Faidi and the kids. said hi and mingle for a short while before coming back for hamizah. lepaked there for a short while. and off we cabbed homeeeeeeeee! :) ANOTHER GREAT DAY WITH BFF. WISH DEAVI WAS THERE. MISH U!
ily boo!
i just want you to miss me i want you to want me i want you to need me i want you to tell me how much you care i want you to talk to me but not 24/7 i want you to understand i’m very emotional i want you to tell me everything is going to be ok i want you to be there for me.. i want a friend
MY Brother. *shakes head* hahahah,he is so not romantic at all. his reply is worst than mls nk layan kind. this cinonet fb wall him ILOVEYOU like so many times. and when i see the girl's wall, there's like none. i mean, only on rare occasions.haha. and he even swear at this girl cb lah, pukimak lah.etc. haha.omg. but. seboring/sekurang ajar adek aku pon dia tetap syg budak cinonet ni. what i notice is guys who text the most boring words just turn out to be the sweetest kind. hee :)) guys who text like a composition like fadil really kinda bores me.hahaha. siol aje eh! haha _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________