WELCOME FEBRUARY 2012 *CHEERS!* hehe. January had been an awesome month working as a REAL LIFE TRAINER. being called a TEACHER by the students had been really an honour to me. hehe. being greeted by the students and such :) back then when i was working at PYSS, i was annoyed when the students called me TEACHER way too many times. haha. mcm annoying. bt now pikir2 balik, mcm ade proud sikit lah. HAHA! LOL! i am esctatic to leave Ping Yi. It was a great experience btw. :) Students are great, and some were bad. but ohwells, for 1 month i managed to hold on. THANKS TO THE VARIOUS PUBLIC HOLIDAYS. ALHAMDULILLAH!. i havent even taken the sec 4 NT classes. SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH! haha. i only hope for the best for the new trainer. and website! aha.just the right timing to leave the sch. part susah2 editing the website all handed over to the new trainer. HEHE. so WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL BABIES, IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE NOW!! NO NEED TO WORRY. NO NEED TO THINK SO MUCH. A...
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Weekends are okay. went to movie with fadil. *gasps* haha. anw it was okay. it would be better if he would stop touching me here and there. not grope la. but its kinda annoying u see. standing so near me. FOR WHAT ALSO IDK. go down escalator also want to stand so near. gosh. suffocated pls! anw he bought me a neck chain. oklahhh. he wanted to buy me flowers. thank god he didnt. so embarrassing can! carrying flowers around. kalau matair aku tkpelah jgk. hehe. anw yeahhh.oklahhh tu kan. sunday was spent with hamizah. hehe. gosh we went as far as simei to satisfy our greedy needs! haha. always lah. we tend to order so much food. and at last tk habis. must stop this habit lah k! mcm syaitan sey perangai satu2. heheh. then we went to watch MOVIE. AWESOME LA. Local movie rocks! its very funneh! i loike. haha. anw some parts of the movie were very touching :(( almost cried. but never. hee. watch it ok. anw hamizah is getting really annoying this f...
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Sec 312 OMG. boleh pengsan aku!! buat research pon boleh jadik susah sgt ke! sikit2 TEACHER TEACHER TEACHERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! i only got 2 legs and 1 ME. HOW CAN I LAYAN ALL THIS STUDENTS by myself. ADOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. bila aku present, tknk pay attention.bila suruh buat, smua tk tau. *istighfar* HAHA. kecoh sia aku. welcome to the teaching world.
Being depressed isnt fun. Being depressed but acting like im not is as hard as trying not to be depressed. :( I wish I had memory loss. I want to start anew. I dont want sad memories haunting me anymore. I dont want to remember anything. I dont wish to keep anyone in my mind. let my mind be empty. let my heart be free. let me be happy. ...
And lets see whether this newfound love of yours will change things. and of course love might be the most happiest thing that happened in your life. Being un-needed is smtg common. all the best and be happy. Only one thg,if u plan to go off with someone, then dont ever be so close to me. dont hurt me. K gdnight. -----------------------------------------------
I am so emotional right now. Stupid shows like ombak rindu cant even make me cry. and yet a movie about a war could make me so emotional. :( I can almost imagine nabi muhammad and his troops against the kafirs. his bravery etc, I knw could not be compared with any other warriors. whatever it is, I am very proud with our muslims berjihad for islam. Fight for islam. Even if it means sacrifising your life, family etc. Movie is awesome. any movie that can make me emotional is without doubt a great movie and worth watching. 3 hours and yet never did I budge from my seat. ... :') Touching. Love.
Yesterday is the horrible night ever. threw up in the middle of the night. before that I ate abalone maggi, and poof everythg came out. my gosh. and im having diarrehea,so watery. I changed my undrwear 4 times alrdy. bcose it will come out unexpectedly. okay.lets stop it. sounds disgusting.heh. and im having fever. fever is so horrible. My body is all aching. Fever, vomit, nausea, diarrehea. I checked the symptoms, might be food poisoning. or some bacteria thg whtever it is, frm morning till aft, I slept. and I am nt feeling any better. Nk ge doc also mls. mabok sey. and yeah, enough blogging here. I need to rest. bye. Happy chinese new year.
Lelaki yg beriman adalah lelaki yg malu untuk berkata kata-kata yg manis kpd Yg bukan mahramnya. Kerana dia tahu, kata-kata manis itulah yg akan merosakkan iman kedua-duanya. Lelaki yg beriman adalah lelaki yg tidak Keluar berdua-duan bersama yg bukan mahramnya. Kerana dia tahu, itulah yg akan merosakkan iman Kedua-duanya. lelaki yg beriman adalah lelaki yg tidak berani menyentuh yg bukan mahramnya. Kerana dia takut akan dosa yg akan ditanggungnya dan akan takut akan berlakunya maksiat. lelaki yg beriman. :) Carilah lelaki yg beriman. janganlah kami mudah tergoda dgn kata2 lelaki yg manis2 belaka. Jgnlah kami ikut akan hawa nafsu mereka dan jagalah maruah kamu. Tinggalkn lelaki yg tidak mempunyai sifat takut akan Perintah tuhan. Kerana dia akan menjahanamkn kamu. WANITA, Wanita yg beriman adalah wanita yg memelihara dirinya dari pandangan mata lelaki. wanita yg menjaga matanya. wanita yg menjaga auratnya. wanita yg menjaga maruahnya. wanita yg menjaga i...
Dear blog, Perhaps ure the one that I need now. Working life is really stressing me out. Teaching is hard for me. A lot of planning to do, a lot of thinking to do. And I am responsible over hundred of kids here. Its very pressurising. Not having any form of training, Anything. But well, I kept moving on. lt was not easy standing in front of 40 students, and trying to handle them. teaching IT is so challenging. at some point, I feel like giving up because I couldntt deliver properly to them. Such a failure I am. I am very tired. I cant do it anymore. Mentally I am drained. Emotionally for some reason, I am hurting inside. Let it be. Blaming me for what ive not done. I just want to be happy. is it that hard? I am trying to hold on. trying to find what is worth holding on to. Crumbling. I want to run away. I give up in evrything, everyone, myself. goodbye.
GILE SAK SI FADIL. jumpa satu kali, then ckp in 3 yrs time ge kawin ngn dia. EIIIII.biar benar sak ni anak. tsk. anw HAHA. I HAD A MAJOR2 BRAIN BLOCKAGE JUST NW. my god. i literally gave nthg to do to the sec 1's. ni smua kumar nyer psl! kasi aku gelabah2. last min tukar2. last2 satu sen pon tk jadik. haha! omg.bad record. CONPERM KENE SACK :D k bye
:) Happy because i got sam! Ohmyyy.he is so soft in the inside.hehe. And hamizah got her lavender. haha.pandai2 je aku. sooo, the price was like a hiroshima bomb. my gosh, i hope it is a good investment. okay aside from that, life is terrible at sec sch. I always look forward to ending the classes.haha. Okay which teacher done! anw my hod kene bullied by the students.haha: LOLOL.The thg is, he is like so strict with us, and when he tried to teach, he was manhandled by them. hahaha.karma la. Its okay la. Sama la mcm aku.haha Okaylah.its 10.30pm and i wanna sleeppp..weeiiii. Nights. We had our difference but we thrashed it out. ily.
FRIDAY. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. OI FRIDY LA OI. NARI HARI APA? JUMAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTT. weekends baby. okay people,i am so happy, i cant imagine how happy i am right now. and i am so darn hungry can! omg, when i get home, i am surely gonna get LOTSA FOOD TO CELEBRATE THE WEEKENDS. hehe. OK I CANT WAIT FOR 5PM.
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LOHA. its only wednesdayyyyyyy. omg, i wonder why weekends passed so FAST. and weekdays are moving by so SLOWLY. :((((((((((((((((((((( I HATE WORK LAH. ok, who enjoyed working anw. haiz. there's so much thing to think about. the ICT CLUB. under my care. wht the hell am i going to teach themmmmmmmmmmmmmm. if only i work at pri sch. kan senang hidup aku. AKU NK TRANSFER PLEASEEEEEE. 1 month at ping yi.would be a nice experience.but me dont likey likey. and yeah. today, I SKIPPED WORK. HAHA. i took urgent leave. I FEEL SO DARN GOOD i tell u.haha. and it's raining nw. how great is the feeling man. heee. I miss reading my books :( I miss cycling. i miss SCHOOLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. sadnyer. okaylah im gg to watch tv nw.hehe. bye!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGG 4 days, ive not been blogging! wah mcm break record sey. i swear i was busy running here and there if im not teaching. doing michenellous works. mcm paham ah. try to pasang wire sini sana. failz. hehe. ape hal la suroh aku buat keje mcm ni!! I AM VERY COMPUTER STUPID LAH. everyone thinks that those in IT department must be those IT SMART ALEC who knows the inside of the computer, the server and such. OMG! APA KAU!. satu sen pon aku tk tau. adoi.stress. anw my it exec, kumar and the T.A Jeoff was very busy because of the new HOD IT. haha. he was very particular abt everythg man. which is GOOD!haha. i tell u, the labs are like MICE HOLES. SO DIRTY. and everything was everwhere. berserak sungguh.haha.and no one bothered la. and until he stepped in. things are becoming more organized. thank god for that.hehe anw yah, what else. teaching is kinda hard. was nervous u know. but well, i crapped through the first time. i dont care la. whatever i ...
tuesday, hamizah fav day. haha.omg today i karot so much. astarghfirullah!! only now i realise, i am doing smtg sinful. okay i heard this from ustaz kazim's lecture. you know like maharaja lawak, those guys who actually makes people laugh by creating jokes, nabi muhammad bersabda. "CELAKALAH...." its because they are telling untruths, even though they are jokes. UNTRUTHS! so, actually all this comedians job tk dirahmati allah swt. god dont likes it. omg. means bnyk nah dosaku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay! from now on, ill try to joke and NOT LIE! hehe. okay peaceofff.
OMG.THIS IS A VERY VERY FAST PACED WORKING PLACE. THE HELL. CALLS COMES IN NON-STOP. HERE AND THERE. PROJECTOR ROSAK LAH TU LA NI LAH. MY GOSHHHHHHH. even bukan keje aku pon. nk kene layan tu projector. tak paham. anw today i didint do any teaching. ALHAMDULILLAHH!!!! haha. first day of sch, semua start lambat. :) oklahhh. bye.hehe
okay perhaps i know why so many bed bugs appear out of nowhere last time. i read that they might be there because we had done something that god forbid. wallahualam. i dont know what i did. astargfirullah! but the thing is, the bugs only start appearing after i blast some surah from quran. unknowingly u knw. because the main reason is for me to listen. anw ive read some sources. and i stumbled upon one website, it says if there s no other way to destroy those bugs because they keep coming out, read some doa. and read yaasin too. and the bugs will all come out itself. no wonder lahh. suddenly there was a sudden bed bug infestation. hmmmmmm. something to ponder on.
tahun baru, azam baru!
OMG. IT'S REALLY 2012 NOW. u know, i was like "oh yaa okayy, 2011 is ending". now that i thought long enough abt it, its already 2012! haha. OKAY. the last day of 2011 was spent meaningfully. VERY. i am very glad i wasnt at places where so many people were out celebrating. marina bay, sentosa and all sorts of places. beer fest. half naked men and skimpy looking women everywhere. eiiii MAKSIAT ALL OVER SEY. astarghfirullah! alhamdulillah. i was at yio chu kang stadium, to MAJLIS CINTA RASUL! it was awesome! QASIDAH (group of muslim guys singing) WERE WAY BETTER THAN ANY OTHER POPULAR ARTIST singing OUT THERE. the ceramah was AWESOME! I LOVE EVRY BITS AND PIECES OF THE CERAMAH. by the different pak ustazs. there's so many information that ive gained through the night. and it wasnt BORING. in fact, the people there were very very ENTETAINED by one of the ustaz there. he was really hilarious when giving his ceramah speech. omg. i totally fal...