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2013 My vision for 2013 is simple. i dont want to write all those ridiculous to-do-list. cause i will end up nt doing anythg. hahah. anw, my hope for 2013 is for me to become more pious. haha.seriously. to be more closer to god. stop talking rubbish. be kind to one another. not hurt anyone, physically and mentally. to achieve somethg for myself. to gain some skills/knowledge for myself. and yes, be a better someone. hopefully, i will be able to do all this. 365 days. insya allah! and hopefully, everyone is hoping to do their best too. new year, new start, new resolution. okay HAPPY 2-0-1-3. MAY ALL OF US BE BLESSED WITH GOOD HEALTH, WEALTH AND HAPPINESS. amin! :)

How much we have grown. haha.omg. seeing the old pictures really makes me kind of embarass. i keep asking to myself. omg, is that me?? HOW AM I GONNA FACE THE WORLD, IF MY PAST PICTURES WERE TO BE LEAKED OUT! haha. ok enough drama. i miss being young, back then we were so innocent. see the picture on top. haha. esp the 2 of the bffs. no make up whatsoever. so pure, so clean.hahah. and when they grew, eventually, they evolve to be vain make up pots. hahhaha.jkjk. i see not much diff to myself. except my hairstyle and yes, ive start wearing long sleeve. i think its better. because my hands look like a pair of branches. haha. ok shut up. and yes, as i get older, i feel more cooler than ever. rebonding my fringe and stuff. ok whatever eh aku. haha. i miss the kental days man!!!!!!! haiz. i love u guys to pieces

I dont understand. It's like becoming a trend. I dont understand how couples, not married are allowed by their parents to go holidays together. what is this! kalah org ge honeymoon. what are these people thinking? have you forgotten what your religion taught you? i am plainly disgusted. jagalah maruah. cinta yg sebenarnya, bukan cinta yg berlandaskan hubungan yg haram.. tapi cinta yg berlandaskn Islam. ..... campurlah dgn kwn yg baik2. campur yg buruk, yg baik pon boleh bertukar buruk.

Went to my nenek hse yesterday, and right before we went home, my parents and my grandparents were like discussing abt how much it would cost to pay for a cook for a wedding. omg.wasnt i shocked!!! it can get as high as $14,000 and as low as $6000. the lowest is like $6000!! and i have barely $60 IN MY BANK. haha. such hard times. anw, that is just cooking. what abt the pelamin and everytthg!!!!!!!! OMGOMG. i have just decided to make my wedding as simple as possible. i dont even want to have a persandingan under my block. i think marriage is so much memorable when it just short, simple and sweet. and importantly, not owing anyone money. IMAGINE, HAPPILY MARRIED, AND THE NEXT DAY, U HAVE TO WORRY ABT YOUR DEBTS. tsk. bt thinking again, this is the 21st century. people are gonna talk if the wedding is too simple, or way too grand. that is life. no matter what, people are just gonna talk. i wonder why people have to spend so much on weddings...

OMG.MALU NYE. what was i thinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i just leaked to my HOD abt my pay. haha. ok it goes like this. i was talking with the general office people during lunch time. and then they were talking abt shortage of manpower there. and being kepo, i asked lah how much the pay and such! haiz. and guess what! their pay is much higher than me! how annoying. i am still fed up with my company for nt having a raise in my salary. cmon la. im like underpaid can. for a diploma holder! and guess what. i was actually considering to work at the general office rather than teaching!haha. omg. wat was i thinking. but well, it isnt so bad, it's jst admin work here and there. and i have my own workspace. tts the plus thing for me la. and the pay. is 100% MINE. ergh! then, idk what i was thinking, i went to talk to my HOD abt this. HAHA. i wanted her opinion i see. omg, i was so nervous, i keep saying NVM, NVM. then at last when she finally got what i wa...

my oh my! its been donkeys years since i last blogged! hehe. been busy with god knows what. i've been feeling sad this few days. firstly i was so into watching channel 8 drama at youtube. and the shows are so so so touching. i feel like crying. really.ku rasa begitu sebak di dada. haha. anw, i had an awesome time catching up with channel 8 old dramasssss. hehe. and after that, i read up a malay novel book. and it was way way touching too :( why must they die??? whyyyyyy!! k dah..melebih plak. hehe. and what else. oh yah! my laptop charger is spoilt! AGAIN. THIS IS EXASPERATING. i cant rmember hw many times i bought new chargers so useless all this chargers. haiz.waste my money only. and yeah. nx wk,sch reopens :( ah! i m gonna miss holidays. i will enjoy the last bits of the hols. before all the monsters came back! haha. klahhhh. im lazy to blog.dont knw what to blog abt anw. ok take care allz. byebye.

EH OMG.OMG. AWESOME. SINGAPORE JUST HAD AN UNEXPECTED GOAL FROM KHAIRUL AMRI. AND I WAS FEELING SO OFF because Thailand had an equalizer. and Amri just came in frm nwhere and shoot a goal. my gosh. so exciting. hopefully Singapore wins today's match. ROAR. SINGAPORE. ROAR Lets sing the Singapore Anthem. SEMANGAT MOOD ON.

And I would hide my face in you and you would hide your face in me, and nobody would ever see us any more. :)

:( Today marks the end of all training. gonna miss my colleagues! we barely see each other besides training.. and yes, its just bad that we didnt even knw each other's existence until there is such training or gathering. anw, i had a great 2 weeks of training. adobe excel, i passed the test! WEE. alhamdulillah. even though just passed. i think it's smtg to be proud of because it is just excel. who likes excel anw! haha. and after excel was joomla/moodle. that one whole day squeezed for this 2. i didnt think i learned much. bcse well, i came late and missed a lot of joomla. and moodle was way too complicated to understand in a short time. alahhh.it's nt complicated la, bt i just must knw where to navigate to find what i want. haha. and the nx day was Photoshop! i think the 3 day lessons was quite long and draggy. BUT WELL, THE GOOD THG IS, I LEARN SMTG NEW! haha. i realised that i can do animation at photoshop! how awesome!haha. then it was mic powe...

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PAIN. IM DYING IN PAIN. THIS CRAMP IS ATROCIOUS. OMG.

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    Learn the basics today. I have no comments about the trainer. haha. im just doing my own thg here. lol. boring lah..   ok anw, no comments bcose teachg photoshop is nt an easy job. ok.haha.   ok. byeee 

astargfirullahalazimm. mengantuk nye. and im straining to keep my eyes open. dah la duduk depan. cis. haha omg.jgn tido. jgn tido jgn tido.

sighs. i wonder how much more i can take. u are changing slowly. slowly, but the change is obvious. hate it.

Birthday. Ok at last! been trying to update but smhw i always ended up doing smtg else. haha. anw, bday was great. finally i got to go to the Underwater World. I've been dreaming to go there since i was small. and my bffs brought me there. thanks guys! gosh. how it excites me looking at the big fishes in the big tanks. *open mouth* and some other creature in the seas which i dont even knw existed. see. the fun of knowing wildlife/sea creatures etc. oh yes, we went to Sentosa. did many things there. Underwater world. The spinning thing. The one that goes high on top. and i can see the city's view. splendid! we did some new activity too. i fgot the name ah. it was scary the first time, bt when we finally get hold of it, it was actually quite fun! (yeah right) hahah.a lot of screaming involved. That comes with the activity.haha. what else eh. watched the dolphin show. was fun tooo. yesyes. im nt sure if its that all. seems like i have short term ...

akhirnyaaaaaaaaaaaa. kau hadir dalam hidupkuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. hanya kau yg satu, akhinyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. kau hadir dlm hidupkuuuuu........................ ;)

At last. time to blog. Wed- Fri, Was busy with Excel training. wasnt really busy. but i busied myself flipping through the pages when there was ntg to do. haha.chey. anw, fri was the test itself. and alhamdulillah! I passed the test. sadly enough it was with the help of friends arnd me. so i wasnt really using my brain. haiz. and i just passed! haha. horrible. i prefer the test to be done formally. like with no help given. and evryone doing their own test. rather than havng people surround u. it's really nerve wrecking to have people standing behind u. i cant really think u see. giving support lah. which is good. bt they might be wrg! who knows kan. but nonetheless i passed. by 0 marks. haha. 1 wrg click i would see a FAIL :O anws, nvm, its nt the mark tt counts. its the necessary skills i gained during the 3 days course :)) another Mic Cert to come! weeeeeeeeeeee^^ ok till here babies. bye!

I feel like crying already. haiz. i've never felt so broke in my life. and it's jst more depressing that the amount of money i gave my mother this month is so shockingly low. like 100% of my pay is gone. and yes, i regret for not saving in the past. and nw, im struggling to meet ends meet. really. i think the time had come, to PUASA SUNAT. haha. im thinking of taking part time work. but i fear that i might overtire myself. sighs.................................... i wish education dosent cost too much.. ________________________________________________________________________ Sorry *Insert my name*, Please hold on. This will be temporary.(Will not last more than 8 years)haha.How comforting. This period of time, no shopping whtsoever. No eating in fancy restaurant. Just buy a loaf of gardenia bread and a packet of milo will do for breakfast and dinner. (Note that i skipped 2 other meals). No more taxi. This means, the bus better not be late, or more pre...

Yo! this is most exasperating. Having excel training.gah. its nt my way of spending my hols. its been 2 days since ive been here. acp new office. and i miss gg to my sch already :( hehe.drama. anw, yesyes, excel training is sure boring, buttttt i understand, what entertainment is there at excel? i braved through the boredom storm. and i end up here. haha! okok. i think i will blog soon. its super quiet in here. and im my typing can be heard quite loudly. haha ok tc everyone. bybye

oh my. what did i eat. the pain is excruciating. thank god. just happened to take 2 days off from work. is it the milk shakeeeeeeeeeeeeee??? haiz. i will refrain from drinking tht first. feeeels like stomach poisoning i tell u. it so feels like the worst of the worst of my menstrual cramp. ei.and my stool are all watery and my, i cant imagine the smell. okok. i shall refrain frm giving out top secret information here. haha. anw yes, its my bday todayy!!!!!!!!! FINALLY. gosh. i say every single year. bt really, come to think of it. OH NO. 2012 is ending soon. so far it has been a great year. no stress from studying because its oblivious tt im nt into any school. no projects. just work and work. bt working with kids are okay. just better than adults. so, life is all good here. :)) alhamdulillah syukur. anw, yes, my bday. FIRST. i thank god for giving me life for 21 years. It has been fulfilling with ups and downs. what is life without any challenge? (...

Hi December! Time really flies this fast and right nw, it's already December! cepat seyy :( and before i knew it, January would be here, and yes, school reopens :( nvm, wont be sad nw. ill save for those dramatics sadness later. soon to come. hee. anw december went fine. went to nenek hse on friday. omg. AFIQ IS SO SO CUTE NWADAYS. ok updates. 1) he can walk, run etc now. 2) he understands what we're saying! 3) and the way he laughssssssssssss.OMG. *MELTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* CAN I STEAL HIM PLEASE. he is VERY SMART for a 1 yr old kid. i bet he's going to be one highly intellectual kid when he grows up :) sayang ko afiq!! :)) oklah. im off for the day. shall update soon babies. xoxo

AWW. I LOVE MY HOD. she actually gave me a red packet. and inside is like $50. omg, chinese people are so rich can. i think $50 is the minimal amt they wud give for any occasions. when my TA got married, he received $50 too. how generous :)) anw, it was for my advanced birthday. so sweet! kalau aku, nk keluarkn $10 pon seksa. hee. oklah whateves. gdbye!.

those moments we can sit down and talk for hours. :) talk abt anything, everything. those times where i can be honest, thank you for trusting me, hopefully i can do you proud. for myself, parents, you, thank you, Allah for everything. :) Alhamdulillah.

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though its been long since ive accept all this as is it. there's no doubt that there's this tiny hope, this tiny hope, that u will turn back into the old you. i miss the closeness btwn us. i miss the times whereby there are actually no one else except me and you. i miss the feeling of having only you wholeheartedly. oh. i miss the past. and i so miss the old you. xoxo.

shucks. my stomach been acting up these few days. this is because i have not emptied out my bowels for few days nw. and my stomach dosent feels good. gahh.

OH MY GOSH. I AM SO BORED. totally nothing to do................... haiz.what shall i dooooooooooooooooo.................. *singalong* ohhh tell me what to dooooo. ohhhhhh tell me what to dooo. almost 5 hrs left, and it seems pretty far. movies perhaps?since there are no other ways.... i promise you Delila, *pause* haha.ok. dah masok lagu Delila pulak kan. maybe i should research on what courses i should take during my first semester. but i feel.. oh.so.lazy haha okokkkkkkkkkk. ntg to blog abt also, heee.have a nice day!

I just read an article : Peristiwa Ajaib Yang Berlaku Di Bumi Gaza! Read here: http://www.illustrasiaku.com/peristiwa-ajaib-yang-berlaku-di-bumi-gaza/?fb_action_ids=10151270777332661&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582 I read and i almost cried because I was very very touched. I know god wouldnt leave the Muslims fighting on their own. Alhamdulillah. with the almighty help from god, the war was stopped.and yes, at least things are looking better for our Muslim friends over there. :) I am so happy. and I'm happy god heard our prayers to save the people there. To the unbelievers, what do u say huh? u can have thousand of millitaries. but well, we have Allah swt. we have GOD. and in the end, YOU'RE gonna lose. We die, we go to heaven, You die, you go to hell. we've got nothing to lose. that is the greatness of Islam. :)) xoxo Proud Muslim

:)) He makes me smile. This guy here sums up the word Humanity. He is rich, and he uses a part of money for donation. He is rich and famous and yet he donates his blood. He is rich, famous, handsome and yet he dosent have a tattoo. Well he is a person worth looking out for. I sincerely pray and hope that God will give him the guidance to embrace Islam, and well, be a part of us! MUSLIMS! :) if he can leave his past life and live a new one as a MUSLIM, i will be the happiest girl alive. plus some other million of peoples out there. hee. AMIN. IN SYAA ALLAH. if god permits.

soooooooooooooooooooo boring. time passes so slowly when there's zero things to do. and my TA is ever so busy doing so computer stuff. i wish i can help him. bt im like an alien with the computer connection etc. technical stuff and all. just not me. kesian tu mamat. saturday and sunday also he came back to settle computer stuffs at general office. pity him. and me. i am ever so free trying to figure out wat to do. watched few movies. until i got bored. and thankfully, by the time i finished the movie, it was time to go! and i was sure sleepy. haha.tsk. and the lab is scaring me ah. there's like many weird sounds coming from all over the lab. gosh. hopefully whtever it is, they dont disturb me sudah. oklah. bye. im sleepy

Sunday. Agama class was okay. went in very late. sighs. i dont like being late for class. esp when it is the start of a new module. what would the teacher thinks? so embarrassing. anw, yes, it was  an ustaz instead of ustazah, the ustaz reminds me of one of the ustaz who teaches me bahasa arab i think. bt this ustaz was suprisingly entertaining. and i thought class was gonna be boring. bt well, alhamdulillah it went just fine. in fact 41/2 hr dosent even feels long. :) anw, after class, went to bugis. prayed at masjid sultan bfore rushing to illuma to catch Twilight. it was okayyy, it wasnt really great. just ok. i totally hate the fighting part. idk why, but all the time they were fighting, my heart was racing so fast. it's like im having panic attack. i have this fear inside me. i just dont knw. bt one thing for sure, i hated the loud music effects. the bg music was dark and terrifying. the whole time i covered my ears from all the sounds and music. i...

Its jst weird hw fasting changes a person. when im fasting, it's feels natural to open a cookbook and look at receipes or maybe (FOOD). hahahaha. and tk sangka aku rajin research online psl makanan. bt really, i think since my parents alrdy chge the stove, there's no other reasons for me nt to learn hw to cook right? haha. ok give me time, and i will master how to cook. NASI GORENG. the simplest (yet hardest for me, since im an ameteur) ohwells, i have to start smwhere right. end up, i will buy the ready made paste and cook it with rice.haha. pemalas. haha. OMG.SO EMBARRASSING. K TOODLES.

why u kill my bestfriend? i love him. i love him.. why u keep coming? why? u come at night, i cannot sleep. why u keep coming? In his eyes I see the sun, In his smile I see the moon. And I wonder, I only wonder Who is weak, and who is strong?  Who is right, and who is wrong? And I wish, I only wish, That the truth has a tongue.. :'( from a 5 year old girl... even a 5 yr old have a sense of humanity in her. adults should be ashamed of themselves. tsk.

Staff dinner was fine. okok.ate non-stop. there were like 8 courses of food? im nt sure. bt all the time, we were eating and eating. the food was okk. not fantastic, just ok. anw there were cereal prawn! :) hee. and yah what else, nthg exciting there, we had games and lucky draw. sighs. im always unlucky. even my TA won something. *cries* haha. the top price was like IPAD and IPAD MINI. jelous much. nvm, berysukur apa yg ada. yah la. tts kinda all for the staff dinner. wasted money cabbing to the wrg place. and cabbed again. cannt trust my TA for directions. haha.hancur dua2. and i wore a flowery long dress :O hahah.lol much. okaylah. till here. nk xinmsn kejap.haha

haizz. so embarrassing. country being bombed, people being killed. and yet, they did not leave their responsibility towards god to pray 5 times a day. and us over here, mcm tk bersyukur. smbhyg pon malas.smua pon mls. maksiat pon bnyk. tnggu malapetaka nk smpai baru nk berubah ke? the war at gaza is supposed to be an eye-opener. just so embarrassing la. malu dgn org islam kt Palestin. haiz. semoga Allah berikan kita hidayah untuk berubah. amin..

Now now, how the heck are we similar? :O I mean compare Bella and Me, not my mom.

Me and familia. My mama and me and my pet. oh no, its nt real :p Inside flower dome. Cloud Forest. (Waterfall. AHHH!) Went to Gardens By The Bay with my familia on saturday. We went with groups of peoples in buses. i feel so kental having to go in groups because mcm u knw kental. haha.ohwell, bt end up i think it's an awesome idea bcose, first transport is provided. we took a big bus to marina bay. save money woi! then food is provided. they had nasi lemak.yummy! and transport back home is also provided! u see. this is an excursion for the lazy peoples! haha.and the price is just 12 bucks. and we went to flower dome and cloud forest. flower dome was okay. the great thg is it was air-conditioned. and i thought it would be scorchingly hot. haha. and there were flowers of course. a lot of cactus. haha. the scene was really panaromic. u would wanna stay there for hours. bt that is if ure a nature lover. if nt i...

I wish the people would stop making technology more advanced. seriously. too much of technology is not good. somehow people forget how is it to have fun. everything nw is about gadgets/hp etc. such wonders human can do. such wonders what they can think of. from a payphone to a touchscreen phone. from a computer to laptop to ipad. phones getting larger and thinner. everything nw is about gadgets and technology. we are losing humanity man. we are gonna live in a robotic world soon. its gonna be black and white. haiz. anw my main concern is the electricity all of us are consuming. HOW SCARY. Billions of people. and our daily life is based on technology, imagine the electricity that we use everyday. charging our phone overnight, evryday. charging laptops/ipads/computers. aircons at billions of buildings. omg. i am really scared. our natural sources are depleting. in a rate that u can nvr imagine. greenhouse effect. global warming. forest fires, drought flood...

Dear god, Please give your help to the Palestin people at Gaza.Even though I dont really knw what is happening over there, I somehow am aware of the bombing and the endless war that is happening between the Palestiniens and Israeliens. Please save the innocent ones, Please give them your protection. I pray that this war will end soon because i just dont see the need of the killing/masacre/bombing. Sighs. Please shed some light to the enemy's heart. I just want this world to be a happy place to live in. haiz. the world is a scary place to live in right now. Ya Allah, peliharakn diriku dari segala keburukan dan kejahatan di luar sana. Jauhkan diriku dari perbuatan manusia2 yg jahil. Selamatkn kami dari fitnah dunia. Semoga kami sentiasa di bawah naungan dan rahmatmu. Amin.

Such a beautiful day. and my video is almost done! yahoo. yesterday friday marks the end of sch. *breathe a sigh of relief* the past few days are havoc. so many things to do. teaching p6 excel is like teaching short term memory people. as soon as they get back to their seat, they will ask me again what to do. tsk. that is the difficult part of teaching IT. dont knw hw to listen, dont knw hw to read instructions. end up, everything back to square 1. fed up betol. and the best part of teaching is scolding. haha.  there's one class i literally shouted at them to SHUT UP. and then came silence. *crickets* and after that it will be such a breeze to teach. haha.sumpah no teaching skills. haha. ok whtevers. today is saturday! weeeeeeeeeeeee. oh and, nx wk, there will be excel training for staff!! including me. hw exciting!hahah.yahoo! :)) k bye.

I FEEEEEEL SO MAD. the due date is over and ive only realise it today. sighs. its like 1/3 of the works wasted. see, im rushing against time, and I LOST. idk what to say to the kids who have been staying back for the past week or so. now, its over. sighs. but smhw i feel glad a heavy burden is off my back. bt what am i gonna say to the kids, HOD, teacher in charge. my carelessness. i cant even get the dates right. that aside, im glad to have a Tuesday off. happy deepavali my friends!! :))

Oh my. I swear the whole generation of their family can't sing. Haha. Ok. Thank god it was a happy occasion. If nt I would have nt hesitate to thrw cold water down. Hehe. Anw, there's smtg wrg with me. The person I hated most before, smhw my mind wouldn't stop thinking of tt person. I rmbred this phrase whereby, the person u hated most will be someone u will love most someday. Ish. No no. It's nt gonna happen. Impossible. Kk bye.

I hope u knw ur limits. I am trying my best to be patient. If there is nth good to say I'd rather u keep quiet. Idk what ur motive is  saying hurting words. As long I can be patient, I will. But the moment i lose my patient, all of us knw wht the outcome will be. So, Know.your.limits

friday already. thank god. the past few days had been tiring. having after sch training session with the IT students, i wanna to get this competition over with. tk mng pon tkpe. dah penat aku. and i'm very short-tempered these days. what else. it's bcose of the litter in the lab. the messy chairs and computers. very irresponsible teachers. i feel like locking all the lab doors and nt letting any class use the labs. ergh! ahh anw yesterday i attended a meeting to represent my HOD. wahh feeling2 org besar getu.hehe. so awkward. anw i dont quite understnd the content of the meeting. i just sat there and nod my head mcm phm whenever she's talking and looking at me. it scares me out of my wits when she go round the table asking questions which I DO NOT HAVE an idea what they're talking abt.haha. and of course, i couldnt say IDK.so embarrassing. i just gave them an ans even though it's nt right.haha. oh and it's a raffles girls pri sch! wahhh.so...

ahh. i want more of today. its been so long since i had so much fun. :))

goodness, i just cut a whole bunch of hair behind because i cant seem to find a way to untangle it back. felt like 5 snakes entagled into each other and wont let go of one another! haha. i was so frustrated. and worst, i cut it at sch. and hid it below the table. i guess any teacher who found the mysterious paper wrapping below the table would get a shock of his/her life. haha. #whatlazypeopledo. anw i cant see what my hair looks like behind.haha. nvm, i think ive gt talent of cutting hair w/o looking at the mirror. my mom can cut hair, so do i :) but, well, im better than my momma. x2 k merepek. bye

my oh my. its been raining these few days. the weather's been down. perfectly describes my feelings. but i'll wait, because after the rain, comes the sunshine. and after the storm, comes the rainbow. for i knw, even through the darkest period, comes the light. so fear not, we shall make it through this difficult times. imy.

friday. day was fine. there was no students since it was marking day. but smhw, they call it Admin day. which sounds very ridiculous. heh. anw,i was greeted by free soya bean curd and also a packet of drink from my collegue. so sweet of them :) gosh, tt so reminds me. my packet of TEH is still under the table in the lab. my gosh :O haha. anw, me, Mr Ravi(IT Teacher) and  5 kids from IT Club went out for excursion today! weee. so exciting. first time travelling with the kids. we took a very old run down van. pathetic betol. the sch cant afford a nice van for us. haha.anw that dosent matter. we head down to bukit view sec which we thought the tour was held there. journey was 30-40 mins. when we reached, we received a rude shock. haiz. the tour is actually smwhere else. and annoyingly, the place is like 10mins or less from the sch. its actually at arnd toa payoh too. tsk. blame me and Mr Ravi fr nt reading the email properly. to be honest, i didn...

i miss raju! and my 2 other kitties that i had before. sighs. i badly want a kitten can! MEOWWWWW! grr.

They say that good food makes one forget abt one's unhappiness. that just means that. i just have to have one of this good food. anw im still thinking. still comtemplating. ill let nature takes its course. i believe whatever happens, it is predestined. your call.

its a simple msg. and it comes from the heart.

xoxo. Tmrw is already the start of November. Time really flies huh. Goodbye October. Well Hello November! Please be good to me. 16 Nov marks the end of sch. i dont knw whether to be happy or sad. because the sch will be oh-so-quiet till the nx yr. and surely the teachers will have their dec hols. and im stuck here doing ntg, and furthermore my leave is left with 2.5 days. sighs! on a brighter noteeee. my HOD will be back!!!!!!!!!!!! SOON. YAHOO! K bye

oh my. my small brother is sure gaining weight. and it is sure nt a good sight at all. i wonder whose genes they took from and why is that theirs is so much diff. as much as i eat, i just cant seem to gain weight. but alhamdulillah, i think god wants to balance out the weight in my family. haha. so ridiculous. oh so its tuesday already. hopefully i can  find something to do nw. hee k bye.

Ya allah, jauhkan diriku dari sifat marah ini. sesungguhnya, begitu sukar untuk diriku mengahpuskan perasaan marah ini. ya allah. ya allah. ya allah. ya allah, tetapkn hati kami untuk beriman dgn mu. ya allah, hidupkn dan matikan kami dalam keadaan beriman dgnmu. amin..

ya allah, jgnlah kami lalai dgn kehidupan di dunia ini. amin.. lalai sungguh adek beradik aku ni. susah betol nk tengok dorg sembhyg. haiz risau aku.

Arnt you such a LIAR. spell it with me. L I A R. People like u dont deserve any respect and trust frm me. tsk.

  Simplicity. Simply.Me   Loves. 

Ahh penat betol. lepak at my nenek hse for quite a long period of time, because apparently my small bro dissapeared smwhere else, and everyone have to wait for him -_- ergh!. anw, dosent matter. i love my nenek and atuk. hopefully they will live a long life, insyaallah i want them to be witnessing me naik pelamin.hehe. jauh eh fikir. hee. anws, afiq is getting bigger and handsome. he cut hair!!!!!!!!!!!! and he looked so adorable and boyishly handsome la. alala boboi! mcm nk cium. bt well, tk biasa plak cium org. hehe. i dont rmber kissing anyone except for 1 or 2. felt really weird, bt well, that is when my love for someone has gone overboard. chey!haha anws, went to Coasta Sand Resort soon after. ahh jauh. my cousins booked a chalet for gathering. all of them were there. and my family was the last. hehe. and so we lepak-d until night time. im feeling so shagged nw. and so embarassingly i tripped on my high heels. (nt exctly high heels, i jst dont knw th...

    Loves.

    To all Muslims all over the world, Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Haji/Korban! A glorious day indeed. We, muslims all over the world celebrate this islamic event, by firstly, gg to the mosque to have our Prayers, then the sacrifising of sheeps.hee.   today, i went to Ansar temporary mosque with Hamizah and Sinah. They came late as usual. Anw yes, i miss hearing thos takbir raya's. :') always remind me of those who have already been gone. and such embarassment, i didnt know the procedure of the prayers. HAHA.SHAME ON ME. anw, it was a great feeling. alhamdulillah i got the chance to experience this once in a year prayer. :))   Sadly enough i dont see any sheeps there. hehe. i dont want to see them being sacrificed. i only want to see the sheeps! oh nvm, gmbar pon jadik lah.hee. anw the pic above is for u allz. cute right! my gosh.mcm nk pelihara can!haha. tebiat eh.   yesyes. so, long weekend this will...

  Insyaallah.. Padang Arafah~

Masyaallah. Sesungguhnya hari ini aku berpuasa sunat. CHEY ACTION EH! haha.okok. khamis, Hari yg penuh barakah, hari ARAFAH! FYI. Hari Arafah adalah pada 9 Zulhijjah, hari umat Islam yang mengerjakan haji melakukan wukuf di Arafah. Hari Arafah hari istimewa. Dari Aisyah r.a. katanya, Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda; "Tidak ada satu hari dimana Allah Taala paling ramai membebaskan hambaNya dari Neraka selain dari hari Arafah." (Sahih Muslim) Pujian Allah bagi orang yang wukuf di Arafah. Dari Abu Hurairah r.a. bahwa Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda, “Sesungguhnya Allah SWT. memuji mereka yang sedang wukuf di Arafah kepada penduduk langit dan berkata kepada mereka : “ Lihatlah kepada hamba-hambaKu yang datang kepadaKu.“.(HR Ahmad) Digalakan berpuasa kepada yang tidak menunaikan haji. Rasulullah saw. ditanya mengenai puasa pada hari Arafah. Rasulullah saw.mengatakan, Dikaffarah (diampun dosa) setahun lalu dan setahun akan datang. (HR Muslim) See! the greatness of ISLAM. ...

HAHA.OMG. Monday was the slackiest day of my life. half of my day was staring at the com and asking myself what to do. haha. anw so, out of boredom and since the ipad is in front of my face, i did something which i would never do in a thousand years.RAP. haha. omg, i was listening to songs and smhw i stumbled into rap songs, and OMG, i sddenly got an inspiration to do my own rap. HAHA. no lyrics whatsoever. oh, i tried to create my own lyrics, bt i gave up halfway because i cant find the right words. HAHA, so at last, i decided to do this randomly. it wouldnt say it was a SUCCESS. bt well, wasnt i proud of myself because among my friends, only i can rap well. (HAHAAA.OMG, PERASAN TO THE MAX). the rap song totally is a new generation music. it has great meaning behind the song. like for eg, telling people to have lunch at 1pm and so. haha anw, pls feel free to download my song. since ysterday, there's ZERO dwnloads. haha.pathetic yer. anwssssss, yesyes, anw i...

YAWNS. It's already monday. and i am oh-so-sleepy today. i slept quite late yesterday spending such a remarkable time reading storybooks. enid blyton. rmber?? those storybooks for kids. adventure sorts. ahh i wish my life is like a storybook. full of addventure and excitement. hehe. anw, today the P6'S went for study trip to Malacca. HOW FUN! the sch is gonna be quiet for the next 4 days. that is gd news for  me. hahaa.anw I MISS GG TO CAMPS SEY. looking at them go with their bags remind me of my P5 CAMP. it was the best camp i ever had. oh anw, that ws nt the only camp i had ok.haha. cooking at the open, learning hw to built a tent, and much much more. also we went to ubin, then have to dive inside the sea. it was scary. bt well, it was to increase ur self-confidence and all. was fun! anw my life long dream is to jump out frm the plane, with an instructor of course. nk feeling2 jadik bird. looking at the world at such magnificent view!. hopefull...

Something inside me feels empty. haiz. waiting for someone to fill this heart with love and happiness..

Sunday. Class is as exciting as usual. Even though the topic seems so straight and dull, the ustazah managed to get us gg by doing research. omg that reminds me, i want my own wifi can! haiz. So embarrassing to ask people to switch on their hotspot. mcm extra getu.haha. bt well, i dont think my friends mind. esp my bff. haha. she would gladly share her hotspot with me. right?haha. anw, i learnt quite a lot today. I begin to appreciate the past now. Learning the past enable me to understand more how Islam came about, the people before us, their behaviour, and how they actually live their life. it is exciting u knw! I find that whatever that happened in the past is happening right nw. gosh. it's scary. bt well, the earth is round. What goes around, must come around. It's like a repeat telecast. hmm. scary. Example, in the past, before our time, gays and lesbians already existed, and god destroyed the whole village, because they refuse to listen to their prophet'...