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here comes friday. the day has come. hopefully ill be ready to face all this alone. hais. hoping someone can be with me all the time. haiz. why dont i have a sister or what. :( hopefully ill be strong. hopefully times passes fast. hopefully i cn keep myself occupied. hopefullyhopefully. nvm.god will be with me 24/7 tat, i dont have to worry. hmm. anw. i miss my HOD so much! havent see her in ages. hopefully she'll come back soon... ...

Wello!! Omg its alrdy 30th of August! How time really flies when ure busy. haha. anw, yes busyyyyyy as a bee. went everywhere. help the VP, the teachers and lots more. cheyy mcm phm plak aku eh. anw yes. i am happy because, to think that I have lots of to do. when it seemed impossible to complete all that in a day, smhw i managed!! Of course THANK YOU ALLAH! for helping me all the day. :))! alhamdulillah. anyways, tmrw is teacher's day. ok not my day. bt im feeling very-so-happy, ohwells, i do not expect any gifts of course. because well, i dont even have my own class. but well, some p2 kids actually give me a cert award for being the BEST TEACHER. OMG :') nk cry! and 1 of them gave me a cute pen with feathers and small flowers in between. :') nk nangis can. so touching. i didnt even meet them everyday. and yet they give me all this. aww! ok i will upload some pics soon. soooooooon. ahh fri to sun. i'll be away to my cousin weddin...

Pheewit! Double Pheewit! haha.anw i had no idea someone took my photos. Suddenly je muka aku di suratkhabar.ahahah.whatever eh!lol.

OMG. its been a week since i blogged. blame it on my busy schedule!haha CHEY! lol. anw raya was okayy.. i didnt expect to get any money. but alhamdulillah.some still gave,haha. i knw why! because my bros are still in ns right. so basically they still qualify for duit raya. and of course they dont want me to feel tersisih u see. if they give my brothers, how do u think i feel ?? :'( exctly.hahaha. chey padehal. i dont care 2 hoots abt money.haha. anws, we went greyish this yr. shitty color.but well, the color kinda look nice under the sun. haha.omg rubbish much. anw. work was gg fine. my TA is gg MIA nx wk. 4 days :(((( he's getting married in the middle of a busy week!haha. kentot dia.haha. wahhh. he sure receive a lot of $$. cant believe the people here are actually so generous.haha. anw what else eh.. i feel like shitting now. Erm Monday. i have high tea.haha.lol. mls ah nk ge dah la my bff at work tkde.haha. sighs la.! anw the TA replac...

Gosh ive been busy these few days. There's a lot of work gg on. I was so worried I wont be able to complete evrythg on time. but alhamdulillah. I've managed to do all, and even though not all are done yet, at least almost all are done! :) and yes yes, today ( Saturday ) marks the end of Ramadan. Of course im gonna miss waking up during sahur, missing the hot sun, breaking fast at home/outside / terawih and such. But well, it's over :( But insyaallah, hopefully i am able to taste the sweetness of Ramadan nx yr and the following years to come. Insyaallah. I have done many wrongdoings, which i regret of. Please do forgive me, Esp my parents. My brothers, and my closest friends. I'm sorry. Insyaallah i will become a better person in time to come. Okay i will blog another time. my laptop's dying. :) Goodbye! Selamat Hari Raya yerr ! :)

In the darkest time of life. I call for you.Because only you will answer my call and listen to what ive got to say. :) Dear god, Sometimes, I wonder how long am I going to last. I fear that I won’t be able to hold back this feeling of mine which I have been controlling since. I appear strong, but deep inside, I am way too vulnerable. Faith, Patience and Will Power, its keeping me strong and alive deep within. Sometimes, it hurts. It hurts to our loved ones happy with someone else. Someone else. So much so, we want them to be happy, I finally understand that we have to make sacrifices. I can't be foolish enough. Hopefully I got back what I’ve lost. Hopefully I’ll get something better. I trust god. If someone so precious is going to be taken away from me. I know god will send me someone. Someone who will make a difference to my life. And make me the one. The special one. Dear god, please refrain myself from thinking ...

You come once in a year. You come with bringing one hidden special day for us. You come accompanying with the hot sun for one whole month. You come, chaining the syaitan for us. Your arrival, brings heaven closer to us, and door of hell closed for us. Your arrival, we welcome. Your exit, we are saddened to bid goodbye. Ramadan 2012 :) Savour every moment of it. .....